Tendencies

My new boss, or should I call her my EIC, according to some colleagues has rep to change her mind. Nevertheless who am I to say no to all her demands? After all RHP or simply put rank has privileges.

Beyond my failed search for a cervical cancer survivor, she assigned me to do a different story which was about anorexia.

Luckily enough for me, my friend Cy, has a colleague who once was. So, I researched on the subject matter.

Then i found out the SYMPTOMS (should we call it that?)
1. vomiting
2. compulsive exercises
3. abuses laxatives

There was a time in college that I exhibited these symptoms,, not just the vomiting part. Me wonders if friends noticed it, probably not, am good at keeping secrets about myself eh ( kasi diba sa likod ng pack may counter doon. I remember na hindi ko pa inuubos madlas yung save it for tomorrow. Every weekend, I would not eat because the first time I tried not eating for 24 hours, my stomach flattened quite obviously.

I would get up early in the morning to exercise, even surfing cable TV just looking for a program with people doing some fitness aero on it. I think I was even the one who broke our exercise bike because of iver use. I shied away from the public transportation so I can get more physical activity out of walking ( well also to save money).

But i guess the worst part was my addiction to laxatives. My grandfather had problems with his colon, and he needed some medications for that. He had a supply of castor oil, which he detested because of the insipid taste. So, I took them and almost every day whenever I felt I overate I gulped down one bottle. The taste did not matter. At that time, it was all tasteless, no honestly, it was. When my castor oil supply run out, that was when I turned to Xenekot and Dulcolax. The former was more cheaper although one tablet of the latter does it for me.

Now, I'm not that very much into laxatives, heheh. Infact I eat and eat and eat.

But i do still worry about what it is I take in. I make sure that I eat something healthy and/ or drink a glass of milk everyday.

I'm only sharing these facts because hey maybe you also had anorexic tendencies you just don't know it

I Fear Famous People

October 5
late afternoon
ABS-CBN

Okay, so my first ever celebrity interview.

- PRANING! MAJOR, because I hated being late, what ever it may be, for deadlines or events. Our time set was 5pm and I was at the MRT station at what, 5pm? hahaha!

- More so I was reminded how easily i fumble whenever I'm near a celebrity. On my way to the ABS-CBN Talent center, I saw KAREN DAVILLA doing her radio show . I wanted an "I LOVE YOU KAREN DAVILLA" poster right then and there, knock and scream like crazy, I don't care if I'll cause a riot. The thing was, I don't even like Karen Davilla, I just know her as someone who delivers my evening news, that's it.

- I was running like a freak, even though my celebrity interviewee wasn't even in our meeting place. She wasn't even our way. Then, at the elevator, i saw Gina ALajar who was who was going out. I got googly eyed.

See, what I mean these are people we all know, but then not necessarily adore (excuse to some fans). Thank goodness my first interview is not as big celebrity a celebrity like say or even Judy Ann Santos or Marian Rivera (so there I'm not much into network war people), well hopefully she will be.



I remember back about a year ago, there was this shoe wear event and as I hated being late, I came in first. So the PR firm was still finalizing some details. I sat alone the function room, and I saw Jay-R, the RnB singer Jay-R pass by. Automatically, my eyes popped out and I just couldn't stop smiling at JAy-R who I don't even know a single song . I followed him with my gaze, and it was an instant crush, no he was not that cute, para lang sa tv, okay?


Is there something called to all this? Like famous people freakaziod? celebrityphobia? Or just simply starstruck!

Slap Me! SLAP ME NOW!!!




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If you're wondering what went on with the interview, yeah even though I had to wait for two hours more, it went great. Erich Gonzales is very accommodating. And no her boobs are not fake, believe me, probably a cup A or B, she's just got good cleavage.

Hmm,. as for those two hours, it was like a scene from Pinoy Blonde stars ( Gerald Anderson, Jake Cuenca, Sharon Cuneta, Enchong Dee, Xian Lim and EJ Falcon) appearing out of nowhere , what would you expect I was in ABS. I interviewed Erich while on the dressing room, she was gettign ready for her SHARON guesting


i would be posting the recorded interview on multiply soon,
anaktiyanak.multiply.com

i'm thinking of making my multiply site as my online portfolio. So what do you think?

Update

i cant believe that its been months since i've blogged about anything.

lately my social life has been active, that my mom kind of getting used to it. Last night from bowling, came home at eleven something, she didn't say a word. Just shushed me, as i was bout to give her a polite peck on the cheek. Obviously disapponted, heheh.

It is a big improvement from the usual get-out-of the-house-malaki-ka-na-go-get-your-own-place text messages. Well, been hanging out with a lot of friends, meeting people and as for the opposite sex, just a lot of textmates lang naman ano ,. hahah. (cornetto pa din ba?)

like who?

well,. i'll share only one because this is one particular case i'd like to rant about

an old classmate from, who i shall label as the perv,. in his messages, both text and chat he has nothing good to say except cutie pie, gorgeous, sweet, innocent and (im about to puke) calls me his girlfriend,. wishing? Please can you make your bola styles a little more subtle
what more he feels he stood me up when i asked him to accompany me to wait for an important meeting. Like duh, as-if. Feeling! First of, it was not a date, second i had friends who i had fun playing billiards while waiting. So, can the perv stop feeling ever so important and stop apologizing.
perv is good looking,. so if anybody out there wants a guy who's only objective is to take a peek into your friendster private pix, he's all yours.

nope i did not allow him, even though those picx were only shots of my childhood,. bwahahha
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well, am also happy to find out that tortilos does not diss bad grammar nor neologism. cause bad grammar is a delinquency that i am guilty of.

budul-budul

i feel that i just have to blog about this and let you know that there might be a new operative arising.
I think it might have somthing to do with my job postings, alongside that, asking applicants on the job post to look for me,coz i give my name on the ads.

the man on the other end of the line said that he was Dr. Lacson, i forgot his given name.

sabi nya kasi he has a package for me,. from a relative from the states, since he and his wife just came from there. they're currently in Bel- Air, and were wondering if i could pick it up.

una, ang sabi nya he has a package from a relative in the states, since galing lang daw sila doon

kunin ko ba daw? sa bel-air lang daw sila

tapos give-away na nung tinanong nya ako na sino ba kamag-anak mo doon?

ha?

ako naman, nag-aalangan, sumagot pa din na yung tita ko po,

pero diba?

tapos nilipat nya yung phone sa babae. na tinanong ko kung san sila galing? ang sabi nalang nung babae,. tanong mo kaya sa kamag-anak mo,. at yun binabaan na ako,.

make me immortal

Gods and goddesses before where held to highest esteem because of thier power and immortality. Even hjfg rwanted to be immortal. But i define immortality in a different light. We all have to die.

Its all about being remembered. Even after i die, a little kid will be reading a poem about me, that’s how I wanted to be immortalized. Like Petrarch‘s Laura, who can write an entire poem just about her hand.

Where else can i find them but in their own little literature dkjfgbreg I don’t want to go to conspiracy just yet or where i hear a poetry reading might be. I had to break the ice. Join the club somehow.

So i insisted upon being a writer. After college, my first job was as a staff writer to this new condo magazine. It was good, because I was working alongside a poet, who was esteemed by his peers/ has never won a Palanca

Slap-bitched that i do not know how to write. Ouch! At my first job it made me cry. The publisher did not know of what he was saying . He didn’t mean to say it, and for me that hurts. What he said and that it came abruptly in a casual conversation.

Second it was said more nicely. Just that i needed some improvements

So after i took sometime out did a little soul searching on what i wanted to do with my life. I ended up applying for almost anytype of job, just to get a crack at it. I’m young! Just like some of my friends I can shift careers if I was not up for it.

In came my new work, I have lunch everyday with girls from my age group, so we usually talk about guys a lot. All of them have families already, I’m the only inexperienced one. They asked me what I look for, what turns me on.

Still,i was a bit puzzled, if i should continue on for my search for immortality. But i had no general requirements except for those people looking like tortured artists. So i hastily gave away guys with long hair and balbas sarado. They laughed and immeditely linked that image to the manong on the corner street.

If they only knew, Stupi d crushes, obsessions even, that almost lead to the point of stalking them. Calling them by junkfood names, cause that was what i together with a friend that i desperately snuck along saw thwm by.

So if want to be remembered, i don’t need a fikehrf to write me a poem or a painter to turn me into a monalisa. I don’yt want to be somebody’s wife or somebody’e muse. Iwant to be my own brand in my own work, i can be known. Only i can makemyself immortal.

If i wan to be immortalized, i have to do it myself, i want o be known as me for having done something great not just because of someone.

Besides by the next century, everybody would be looking throught the computer, probably reading somebody’s blog or downloading a movie.

How many of you know laura and petrarch?

Violet Crumble

I could eat chocolate all day. Honestly, my sweet tooth could never tire of that

Be it, chocomucho, goya or Cloud9; Ferrero, Cadbury, or Nestle. I could never imagine anyone not liking chocolate. That's why I think an officemate of mine who doesn't like sweets is from outerspace.

Well, my all time favorite would be 'violet crumble'. When I was a little girl, everytime my mom and I went grocery shopping at Rustan's, I would always ask her to buy me a bar. Everytime she asked why I simply answered just because I liked it.

Unfortunately, the crumbly bar got phased out. Although thanks to the internet, i found out that autralians have the same taste as mine, and its still available there, tagged as their favorite chocolate. (anybody going to Australia?)

Right now, I have to settle for Malteseers, it has that crunhc that violet crumble has,

bring me back to reality

i have this friend who usually complains about her boyfriend and then she says she loves him.

the number of times they've broken up can actually equate all the Chinese people, even those who just look Chinese.

Not a week, nor day, and I'm not exaggerating, has passed that she tested me for a complain.

And they usually have a spat over the smallest things. Just because she was not able to watch an episode of Entourage, which her BF is a fan. Or just because she's been talking to a friend whom her BF does not approve of.

It was the holidays! it would be mean not to greet!

What more, the guy picking out your friends, tsk! Tsk! Even her parents don't do that!

Leave the guy already.

She reasons that she can't because she loves him, she can't stand to be alone.
I wonder does she really love him or perhaps she just loves herself?

If ever this happens to me, I won't leave a guy despite all the bad things he has done, can you slap me and bring me back to reality.//

one step at a time

At first he was just a sign that I wasn't gonna be late for work.

But then, I began to took notice. He is tall and babyface, which I have to admit is really my type, ewan ko ba kung bakit naligaw doon kay Tortilos.

I usually see him moving, in a plain yet radiant long sleeves polo shirt that matches his skin tone, listening to some mysterious music, through Paseo Avenue . As each day passes, as I hurry to get to work, grows the eager fascination of again seeing him.

I thought I wouldn't get to see him again.

Then, today, the fates smile upon me.

As if being reminded by Jordin Sparks, whose song I was hearing over my radio phone as I caught a glimpse of him, I need to take it

One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen when it's
Supposed to happen that we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

on the wedge

I always had a fascination for wedge shoes. They give height and comfort. They are elevated in the same way that you have this inkling that you won't slip. After all, the height that you need is very well supported.

Moreover, I always believed that the wedge shoes aren't that vulnerable.

I was wrong, I heard my right heel crack. Nasira yung shoe ko!

Buti nalang may dala akong slippers and i had an extra pair of shoes here in the office

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Postscript

I can't wait for the end of season sale either end of the year or early 2009.

Start saving people!

Schizo Tendencies

even a computer gets a virus, thus comes the old adage, nobody is perfect.

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I was on my way home, riding the MRT with my friend, Mary. When she suddenly whispered, "Bans, tignan mo yung babae oh, nagsasalitang siyang mag-isa." Refering to a lady sitting infront of us. At first I thought she was talking about the morena girl who came in with a coworker, obviously, because they were both in uniform.
So I told her, "hindi no, ayun yung kausap nya" my lips pursing towards her companion who was standing.

"Hindi yan yung katabi nya,"

Sure enough the one seated next to morena girl was having a candid conversation. She looked happy, smiling infact as she told her story.

But to whom? My head searched the entire stretch, to prove Mary that she was not speaking to herself.

Well her eyes were fixed straight ahead, but she couldn't be talking to the girls in our bench, since most of them were blocked by people already standing with heads back. Nor the person seated next to hers, because I remember her coming in with a book, and now slightly dozed off.

That was when Mary shuddered, "Schizo sya."

Yup, I was assured of that, she was babbling, laughing to herself. Then, I too couldn't stop laughing as the girl could not stop talking.

It hit me, as I realized, what was I laughing at, the girl or me?

I simply giggled, "ako din may ganyang tendencies, lahat namn tayo diba?"

Come on, you might have more than once caught yourself talking to no one but your shadow?

There have been many times I have been monologue-ing to my pillow at home or the computer at the office.

Some of my coworkers even took notice of this strange habit, which I jokingly replied that i was talking to "Left and right" and "up and down".

for fun, my boss wrote on my wishlist picture frame para kina left at right. Making the big boss, ask me to explain what it was.

it's not as if I don't catch him blabbing to no one but himself, or should I say the computer monitor?

I know that this is a strange habit that was why I often chew gum to keep my mouth busy from talking.

As I was nearing my stop, Quezon Ave, the second to the last, Mary and I were fooling around with each other on whose block the monologuing girl would get off.

We were both unsure of her, especially since the whole ride we were looking at her and in jest scaring each other.

Well, she did get off at my stop.

Stolen French Fries

Which fast food has the best french fries? Is it Jollibee's crispy you could hear it in your ears cackling as you bite in to the thinly cut "potatoes? Maybe McDonald's salty goodness that you don't care if its only 2% of real vegetable. Maybe KFC thickly cut fries covered with breading that that only Col. Sanders knows

OH french Fries, its like a cycle you grab a piece or two from that the nest of fries then dip into the ketchup then finally to your mouth. It's repetitive cycle that you just can't abhor until you run out of those fake oil-dipped potatoes , you just cant' get enough its tempting.

Maybe, the best question, is which fries are worth stealing?
He was getting us fries! OMG!

quietly freaking out, i could feel my eyes popping out of my face. I couldn't face the counter nor the one assisting us, who seemed to be going for it.

I couldn't believe it! Joimz, my cousin was getting away with it. All he really did was show the staff the card and Presto! Free Fries! Gosh! I was not gonna eat that, and I told my cousin just that.

It was something like Phoebe Buffay's stolen shoes going every time she walked, "not mine, not mine". I could imagine with each bite sounding "hin-di sa-yo, hin-di sayo"
Ay naku!

It was an ordinary sunday afternoon, just the two of us discussing future business plans, so we both went to a Tito's house. Then decided to grab a bite at a nearby fast food, which was KFC. He ordered the newest thing on the menu, the KFC SNACKBOX, while I went for something ordinary, a burger and fries.

A slow day for the resto, because there were only us and two tables occupied. The reason why, maybe there were no waiting chicken nor fries for us. So the cashier gave me a card for my waiting fries.

We took our seat at a nearby table. And i left Joimz to get a few condiments, ketchup, gravy, water that sort of thing. And as i had my tray of nearly everything i wanted, the cashier gave me my fries.

So we had everything then , right? We were about to finish our meal, when we noticed that we still had our card which would signal the staff to bring us something.

So my cousin and I thought of a dare. He said he could do it!

If no one notices, I'm gonna treat him to a movie, but if someone does,ah, he'll have to pay for my ticket.

So he called on the nearest staff member, the one clearing the table next to ours and brought to his attention that we were still waiting for something. FRIES!

Joimz eyes were focused on the guy, but then.
Yes, but then.

Phew!

The cashier who took our order asked the staff what it was for, then she approached us.

She and Joimz had a little discussion.

i couldn't bare to look, much less my deaf ears couldn't eavesdrop on what they were talking about? Were we gonna get our fries? Was he gonna get away with it?

And then, I found the cashier nodding and smiling towards my cousin.

Okay, cool it!

Nagpalusot lang pala ito, wahhahaahhaahha!!!! akwakakakak!!!!! He only asked about the snack box and not anymore the fries!

Bow!

american looking for baby maker filipina

Posting job ads on the net is what I usually do for work. So, when i opened my outlook today and i was hoping for an applicant response to my several posts. What surprise i had when this guy gave me a response complete with details:

Hello!
How are you?
I saw your training2@megaworldsales.com on interent!
I am American male coming to Manila seeking true love, marriage, want to make family, have baby,true love,happiness together!
I am also looking for female friend, guide,language exchange!
I am 36year old so do not have time for playing games Give me your phone number and email addresses I will call you when I arrive in Manila!
Now I live in Japan for 5 years but want to live in Manila or you can come with me in USA or Japan!
What are other popular homepages for Phillipino as graig list?
I have blue,light sea color eyes,handsome,light broun hair,medium,well build,sincere,romantic,honest,gentleman.
I like to exersize everyday 1-2 hours,muscler,I have black belt in self defense arts!
See all about me:
http://proffl.tripod.com/p_my_profile.html
215 photos of me, my mother, father, also you can see me when I was child and my students-children,adults:
http://community.webshots.com/album/567337796NPVRTl?start=84
my skype id: marriagebaby
msn messenger id: ourmarriagetruelove
yahoo id: letsmarrybabyhappiness
Write me your Manila mobile phone number and email addresses here: lovephillipines@hotmail.com I will call you when I arrive in Manila in December!
Call me here now 81-9060549457 Im in Tokyo now, i want to get to know you by phone before I arrive in Manila!

nastereotype na ba tyong mga filipina as mail-order bride? o baka in another light,. we are painted as loving , malambing, magaling na asawa?

whatever it might be? this man is desperate, that he wouldn't even try to get into a relationship, my officemates even joke around for me to chide the guy. Whatever, i do think that a relationship should always have a foundation. You should always be friends first, because if the love fades, at least you have friendship to back you up.

Re-Bond Girl

I'm a rebonded girl, well my hair is. I never thought I'd have chemicals on my hair, because on my list of nevers, one of them is to never color thy hair.

It was just an urge, that made me do it. After all, i've been saving up for it, it cost me PhP2,500 (as of this writing october 24, 2008). My mind was fixed on the idea of sitting on a chair for hours to get me prettier, to have my hair noticeably straight. SO i did not just want to waste my money, I asked for friends where they think the best place for a rebond is. My mom and i asked around for price range.

That's how I ended up in F salon, retiro. The service was great, the owner would always attend to us, her customers and even gave drinks, C2 for moi! What more my stylist, Phil, was nice. He commented on my hair being soft and easy to rebond coz it was still "virgin hair", meaning it never had a treatment, Never been colored, permed or anything of that sort. He gave me tips on how to take care of my hair, he said that i should

AVOID

- mentholated shampoos- going for a swim, sea water, beaches and swiming pool is a no-no now
- getting a relax for my hair, because the relax treatment is acid base and would react harshly with the chemicals used for rebonding my hair.

He also RECOMMENDed:

- taking care of my hair, by having protien, keratene treatments or hot oils in the salon, every month if possible... I thought to myself that mayhbe he was just trying to get some bucks out of me, but hey it did make some sense, right?
what I liked most about the parlor that iwent to was they advised me to go back after three days, the day that i Was allowed to shampoo my hair. It was part of their service to shampoo rebonded customers and check on hair consistency, trim if needed.
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the tips that the hair dresser gave me urged me to look for more tips here on the net and i stumbled upon these:Below is a list of maintenance tips to ensure long lasting straightness of your newly rebonded hair:

1. Never wash the hair with hot water. Lukewarm and cold water is ok.

2. Use a "clarifying" shampoo once a week or twice a month to remove chemical residues, build-ups, mineral deposits. When hair starts to look dull and lifeless, it needs a bit of stripping of acculumated build-ups from conditioners, serums, oils, and other chemicals. If one relies heavily on treatment products and if your hydro supplier is deep well, then this is a must. It is also advisable to use a clarifiying shampoo after getting from chlorinated pools and seawater.

3. Use wide-toothed comb. Avoid using brush.

4. Always use a thermal heating protectant spray like Hairlight Biosilk PPT (available at R. Hortaleza branches) before using thermal styling tools (blower, curling iron, flat iron)

5. When blow-drying hair, use the cold air function. Direct the nozzle down the hair to make the cuticles smooth, flat and closed. This is will add more shine.

6. As much as possible, avoid pony tails, clips, headbands, cap or any way that will create tension to the hair.

7. If going to swimming pool and seawater is inevitable, saturate hair first with lots of conditioner and wear a swimming cap. The conditioner will create a protective barrier so that chlorine and other chemicals in seawater will not penetrate into the hair. FYI, chlorine, as well as UV rays is an oxidating agent and it can alter the structure of the hair, causing reversion to your rebonded hair. Forget the beach.

8. Bleaching/hilites to rebonded hair is okay, but it will create future problems in the succeeding retouch sessions. A temporary spray/mousse hair color or a clip-on colored hair extension is more favorable. Ask me about clip-on (neon-colored) extensions.

Bleached hair / hi-lited sections are processed differently from the rest of the hair. These sections are extremely fragile, and are very quick to process. While virgin hair may get "cooked" for 40 minutes, bleached ones are ready for around 10-15 minutes! The solution used for bleached/hilited sections is different from virgin hair. When ironing, the temperature level for the bleached sections is at lower setting, and the rest of the hair is at higher.

Think of the time-consuming, highly-skilled, labor-intensive method of picking small strands of these hilites sections and doing the said processing, ironing, separating. That is, if you can find a good stylist. Even the high-end salons end up with bad rebond jobs. Worst, burnt hair!

9. Using permanent color to rebonded hair is okay, but it is as damaging as the perm/rebond itself. I don't recommend do-it-yourself home color. It's a risky attempt and end consumer dont have the skills to troubleshoot their own mistakes.

For longer-lasting tint effect with less damage, opt for demi-permanent cellophane (L'oreal "gloss" diacolor, indola vitamin color, "tone-on-tone"). It gives color depth and shine. For washable cellophane with zero damage, look for semi-permanent ones (henna wax by shinemoist, colourshines by sebastian)

Do not undergo any semi-permanent "coating" cellophane treatment 2-3 months before rebonding session, either retouch or full head. This type of cellophane coats the hair strands with a protective layer but washes out after 20-30 shampooings. This layer needs to be totally washed out before undergoing any chemical process (perm,color,rebond) or else it will cause uneven permeation of chemicals, resulting to failure.

10. Recommended product: Kerastase line. Consult a kerastase administrator so he can give a customized ritual according to the texture and condition of your hair. visit www.kerastase.com for product catalogue.

11. Eat lots of protein. Hair is made up of protein. Red meat, soy.


if you're wondering about mentholated shampoo:
head and shoulders and i think the sunsilk summer edition

blind items

thoughts in my head screams: there is no justice in this world!

it would be unfair if i say that not everybody worked for their thesis. of course everybody worked for their thesis. just that some worked harder and gave it their best to have a high grade because after all this (the thesis) will say all about what you learned in your college years. some made time to make sure that they will and can pass their thesis on time. i don't know if i should be one of those few.

after all i wasn't able to pass my thesis. so i was with the few whose grade was a fat INC on the online report. but i did make time to make sure that i have something to write about.

i researched on those amazon women. got books from the humanities and social science that covered the greek culture and literature. i even got to know the library staff especially those at the xero counters because of the many times i went to them. (i got pissed with the xerox boy at the ecclesiastics section, as he told me if i wasn't a girl the librarian wouldn't let me xerox the book i wanted for it was closing time.) i wasn't one of those who dillydallied thinking there was time. I even went to the national library for references.

unfortunately, come submission day. the number of paged that i have with me did not meet the 60 pages, minimum requirement of our strict, hair pulling thesis professor. quite a few of my classmates did still pass with only 20+ pages of written work with them. i wasn't brave enough but with my friend pulling my arm to do so. i tried. but no it was too late. what i saw on my online grade for thesis was INC.

i thought it was alright because i had friends who also received the same grade. so we were grieving together. those with pages below 60 did pass the subject you know. but this isn't about them. this is about the stinking justice system here in manila and how it seems to be exemplified even in an ordinary university.

one of my classmates, who i thought would have the grade same as me, did pass the subject. so, i thought wrong.
according to her she passed her thesis late, heheheh

which according to my profesor he did not allow how can she?

when she didn't even have anything started on the day of the submission itself? she doesn't even go to the library? does she know even know where the CR is in the library? i heard her saying she was just going to ler her cousins borrow her books for her .... basta naasaar ako kay dihfsdhfsdg kasi akal kodgsdgdfgjjgjgjggerg] rg shouldn't i and all those who got INC got the chance to redeem ourselves by passing our thesis not next year and by having that INC erased because after all, she did get to have a passing grade (with or withouth thesis passed).

comeon!!!

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Your Blogging Type Is Thoughtful and Considerate

You're a well liked, though underrated, blogger.You have a heart of gold, and are likely to blog for a cause.You're a peaceful blogger - no drama for you!A good listener and friend, you tend to leave thoughtful comments for others.

What's" Your Blogging Personality?

summer's ending

with summer about to end, i feel a little bit down, since i haven't done any of my goals. aseason is coming and with that would mean adjustment of my time,. yet again.,

haven't learned anything that was on the list,,
ganchilyo,. figures of speech,. all that kaekekan,.
haven't finished lady chatterley's lover,. in fact i lost it!!! binabasa ko sa labas ,. tapos nakalimutan kong daladala ko./,. dumb dumb neknok,.
pati tong blog.,.hay naku,.

but i did achieve somthing this summer,. i did bond with my lola, it's her first summer without him. i did made her watch movies, after 25 years. kulit ko kasi eh,. tsaka gusto din panoorin na mga ksama naim,. pero ang sinasabi nya., kung anong gusto ni ana.,

pero ang tagal ha bago kami nakapanood ng Davinci code na yun,.

ekek
pag ksama ko si mommy,. peaceful ako eh,.
basta hindi katulad dito sa manila,.
akala ko nga nung unang gabi matatakot ako at mangangaylangan ako ng madaming unang katabi (at katbi si moomy on the other) pero ok lang pala,.
tsaka din siguro i felt closer to God,. no really,.
we prayed the rosary every night,. basta iba kasi pag sya yung kasama kong magdasal,.
iba talga,.


and that maybe in the last few days of this (last) summer break i can still do what's on my list,.

different place

dito ako sa tarlac,.

i was supposed to see somebody named tin this week. when i was checking up on her via text messaging,. she replied that she was in boracay,.having fun with the summer sun and the white sand,.

so instead of just bumming around the house doing the same old things i decided to join my grandmother and tita that i can do the same old things but in a different place.



pray for the souls of mr. & mrs. rey medina,. who were murderd and died in fire

save the internet?

http://www.dontregulate.org/

can't believe that i had this blog revived,. whew,. :)

things to do this summer of 2006:

things to do this summer of 2006:

poker
learn a new thing:
ganchilyo,
latin: meanings of i.e.,. etc
learn figures of speech
get fit
keep writing the blog
go to a new place
read a novel
short stories
reconnect with a lost friend

i can get into:

accounting (banking is my top choice)
advertising
apparel
civil service
charitable.not for profit
consulting
education. college
exercise
food
fitness
retail
recreation
social service
telecommuncation
travel

Hindi ako Takot.

ayoko pang matulog.

gusto ko ako lang mag-isa.

gusto ko madilim,

at nakatalukob sa kumot.

pero ayoko pa kasi baka may mumu.

kanino naman ako magsusumbong?

aber.

because today
i woke up crying. talaga, first time.

Makita kang Muli

kinakanta ito ni gelo, sabay kami,.,.

Bawat sandali ng aking buhay

Pagmamahal mo ang aking taglay

San man mapadpad ng hangin

Hindi magbabago aking pagtingin

Pangako natin sa Maykapal

Na tayo lamang sa habang buhay

Maghintay

Ipaglalaban ko ang ating pag-ibig

Maghintay ka lamang,

Ako’y darating

Pagka’t sa isang taong mahal mo ng buong puso

Lahat ay gagawin makita kang muli,

Makita kang muli
Puso’y nagdurusa nangungulila

Iniisip ka ‘pag nag-iisa

Inaalala mga sandali

Nang tayo ay magkapiling

Ikaw ang gabay sa aking tuwina

Ang aking ilaw sa gabing mapanglaw

Tanging ikaw
Ipaglalaban ko ang ating pag-ibig

Maghintay ka lamang, ako’y darating

Pagka’t sa isang taong mahal mo ng buong puso

Lahat ay gagawin

Makita kang muli, makita kang muli

Makita kang muli

i let the culprit...

pinipilit pinipilit buksan,
kaya't nagbubukas nagbubukas nagbubukas
ang pintuan.

kaylangan tahimik at malumanay
ngunit biglang may nag-ingay
at na malitmata.

(tapos na ba?)

TAKBO!?!

ang mga sandaliang haplos sa pagkuha

ng pagkainosente.

Wake up. Wake up.

This is reality.

whatever passes

through this door

is reality.

to anonymous

i am from ust,.
third year college din ako,.AB
my brother is in 1st year Industrial Eng
siguro may kilala akong civil eng, yung nakaPE ko,.

smile always

Divisoria

sinong marunong pumunta pwede ba `kong sumama sa

Divisoria

mas mahal mo naman talga sya eh,. i'm not being materialistic,.
it's obvious with your actions.

And i shall be forever the third wheel, always with couples who are much closer and i am felling left out

my very DumDum ferlo Paper

Time and Science

“Countdown: 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1, zero. The numerical countdown is now regarded as the symbol of century 20, representing the era’s obsession with the future, ‘forecasting’ and the tangible passage of time. one of the common beliefs of the age was in the idea of ‘progress’ and human society was perceived in terms of evolution or development from primitive to sophisticated, simple to complex. The countdown was developed by rocket technicians in the United States of America in order to add presentational drama to the launch of local space vehicles (old Soviet Unions rocket launches did not countdown to lift-off but merely initiated the ignition at the appointed time. More significantly, the countdown was a sign of the measurement of the future, with the point of anticipation located by calibration in terms of seconds. It must have seemed to the 20ers that here was a symbol of the future.”

-from ‘The Poetics of Science Fiction’

Our view of the future may be miles away or just in front of us. With every second passing, we get our reply for what seems to be at reach or not. It is only with time that we may know.

Time seems to be a perception which cannot be distinct and apparent. As mentioned by Lloyd, Genevieve. 1993, the measurement of a time fleeting in the present, as it passes cannot be insulated from puzzles that beset the measurement from non-existent past and future. The only time called present is an instant. .

As stated by Heidegger, Martin. 1992, a clock may show the time. A clock is a tangible and corporeal system in which an identical temporal series is physically recurring, with the provision that this physical system is not subject to change through any outside influences. The clock measures time in so far the duration of an occurrence is compared with identical sequences on the clock and therefore can be numerically determined. The clock provides an insight about time. Time is something in which a now-point may be randomly fixed, with respect to two different time points, one is earlier and the other later. Time is thus an unfolding whose stages stand in a relation of either earlier or later to one another. Each earlier and later can be decided in terms of now which however is arbitrary. The essential phenomenon of time is the future. Time is temporal chronological. Time itself is meaningless, it is temporal. Time never becomes long because it has no length. The essential phenomenon of time is the future.

According to Kempton, Kenneth. 1947, setting is the result of acutely observation of, or natural impressionability to the sense stimuli, which identify localities and makes them exist in the readers’ mental senses as if he were there.

The ten collected short stories are all set on the future. The future is a place which does not exist except only in the text, to the reader and the author. It is of the authors’ imagination of things to come. The writer creates a situation for discovery. As mentioned by Kempton, Kenneth. 1947, a story tries to set up and maintain an illusion of life by recording a sequence of facts. Being loosely based in the past and present, the accounts give us an insight of what is to take place and occur in time.

Time travel begins here, thru these stories.

Luis Katigbak’s story Subterrania is set in the near future, and almost nothing in the society and civilization has changed except the introduction of high tech gadgets such as the hairnet and the HV units. With the materialization of these gadgets people now had no more time to socialize. They failed and did not anymore want to socialize.

This can be somehow seen in today’s youth who sometimes prefer text messaging, spending time with the internet and computer than with getting together. Most of them stay immovable in their preferred rooms where they spend all of their times typically facing either a computer or a cell phone. These people fail to communicate rather than with the use of the internet and SMS.

In the story ‘Espiritu Santos’ written by Pearlsha Abu Bakar, SMS activity and traffic by cellular phones which emits electro magnetic waves alter brain frequency which lead to the advent of humans seeing dead people. The emergence of ghosts, paved the way for these beings to have jobs and the salary that they get goes to their still living loved ones.

This tale also shows the Philippines being eluded by traditional interaction, since the usage of cell phones went critical.

Isagani Cruz’s ‘Once upon a Time Some Years From Now’ offers what might life be with sex just a click of a button away. The POM or portable orgasm machine acts as a go-between between two sexual partners.

Sex has lost its culmination and best moment. It is as if people no longer flirt with each other to get them to bed.

Presented in Jose Ma. Espino’s story, ‘In Swaddling Clothes’ is the survival of mankind at risk. The earth due to man’s own doings is hostile and sterile. Two men and two women are then put to live in a space vehicle. The human race’s survival is at their hand, with the need to procreate.

Introduced in the story ‘Hollow Girl’ by Dean Francis Alfar, is the existence of enhanced men. Hollow Girl is an enhanced human, with many questions. She profusely lives her life with all the knowledge given to her. In the outcome, she realizes that it is with living the life that she might find the answers.

‘Apollo Centennial’ written by Gregorio Brillantes celebrates the hundredth year of man’s landing on the moon. Filipinos still speak crooked English and most probably some dialects have been face out. The Tagalog and Ilocano tongue has been merged to Tagilocan. A number of Filipinos do not speak their indigenous dialect instead prefer to learn either English or Tagalog.

Karen Manalastas’ ‘Treasure Islands’ explores the possibility of what is to become of the Philippines after most of the Filipinos have gone abroad to earn money. The country has turned into a tourist spot with no one but those who prefers to stay working here; usually those Igorot natives who serve as tourist attraction as well.

This is not far from happening since the Philippines has already been exporting quite a number of manpower to different areas of the globe. Everyone of us living here in the Philippines has about a relative or two working abroad.

‘Last Bus Ride; by Pia Roxas suggests the passenger buses being overtaken and left behind by bullet trains such as the MRT and LRT. It is because of the constant increase in the price of gas. Buses are more human, they are more alive than the bullet trains. Since you are always being asked to 'where are you going?' by a conductor. In a bus you can always sit beside somebody in the rows of seats provided for, not unlike in a cramped train normally filled with standing passengers.

Jose Ma. Espino’s ‘Mind your Words’ gives a take on a robot being man’s servants.

The beginning of robots to function usefully for everyday work would emblazon man’s achievement in science and technology, as to robots’ near perfection. One mistake could put a critical remark to a robot, for it does not notice this. Unlike a human who becomes aware of his shortcomings and may easily repair whatever damage done.

‘Past Forward’ by Maria L.M. Felix is a satire which reprimands the Filipino’s fondness for fantasy and actors turned politicians. Unfortunately people have not learned from Edsa2 and they have still elected actors for government posts.

The collected stories provide us of what might happen in time. Considering that, the basis of these stories is the present. The narratives depict an embellish adoption of the current political, social situation of our times, particularly here in the Philippines

These stories, although of make-believe, may not be so improbable from happening. The stories shift and change today’s culture to move to the right direction and somehow see the error of their ways.

Being set in the future, they are all science fiction in genre.

Science Fiction is being claimed as an important genre for turn of century society. Science fiction is a genre which tackles the advancements of science. According to Stockwell, Peter. 2000, Science Fiction has been called a literary genre dealing with scientific discovery, superior or simply other than that known to exist. Science fiction is perhaps the manifestation of the scientific background of its writers, readers and critics that so many have felt the need to categorize it and pin it down with definitive statements.

As mentioned in http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Science_fiction, it creates a setting different from today, the present and the past. The author’s imagination can present the diversity of the imagined effects of real life science, the effect of imaginary technology on present day society, or the effect of imagined science on an imagined society. Science fiction offers about science, the society and the human condition.

Science Fiction, like according to Stockwell, Peter. 2000, has had an impact on the way our cities are planned, transport systems are run, politics operate and the way we view our world today. It is not discovery of truths but the search for satisfactory provisional explanations and understanding.

Like science fiction, these stories can give us an impression of what to relate with and what might be the effects of science and technology on the society and us humans. An idea of what is to happen in time.

Bibliography:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Science_fiction
http://www.Science Fictionsite.com/columns/amy26.htm

Espino Jr., Jose Maria. 1973. Sixteen Stories.
Heidegger, Martin. 1992. The concept of time. Blackwell Publishers.
Kempton, Kenneth Payson. 1947. The Short Story. Harvard University Press
Lloyd, Genevieve. 1993. Being in Time. Routledge.
Lee-Chua, Queena. 2002. Cogito Ergo Sum. Ateneo de Manila University Press.
Roberts, Edgar. 1986. Fiction, an introduction to reading and writing. Prentice Hall.
Stockwell, Peter. 2000. The Poetics of Science Fiction. Pearson Education Limited, England

And the Oscar goes to...

http://www.oscar.com/oscarnight/winners/index.html?ad=oscarnight

wala lang fan lang ako.

bye daddy Ador,.

I'll never forget the moment we kissed the night of the hay ride
The way that we hugged to try to keep warm while takin' a sleigh ride

Magic moments, mem'ries we've been sharin'
Magic moments, when two hearts are carin'
Time can't erase the memory of
These magic moments filled with love

The telephone call that tied up the line for hours and hours
The saturday dance I got up the nerve to send you some flowers


(the way that we cheered whenever our team was scoring a touchdown)
The time that the floor fell out of my car when I put the clutch down
(the penny arcade, the games that we played, the fun and the prizes)
The halloween hop when everyone came in funny disguises

Magic moments filled with love

Daddy is now in a better place.

I will always remember him and mommy always wanting to spend time with us, their grand children. A few years back, there would always be the weekly trips to Manila, just to visit us. We would always be eager with whatever pasalubong or treats they bring (chocolates, chichirya, etc.). Every summer they would come and get us to be with them in Tarlac. While on our way, we would each time stop to get treats. I remember the music playing Perry Como’s songs (Magic Moments, Caterina, Delaware). While in Tarlac, we did not spend most of our times together. Us, grandkids would spend mainly all our time playing by the pool or watching TV. I think only Jero got to accompany him to a cockpit derby, where he would usually be. What he wanted was just to see us, and be with us even just for the summer.

from ust, with love

Labis na naiinip
Nayayamot sa bawat saglit
Kapag naaalala ka
Wala naman akong
magawa

Umuwi ka na baby
Hindi na ako sanay ng wala ka
Mahirap ang mag-isa
At sa gabi’y hinahanap-hanap
kita.

Hanggang kailan ako maghihintay
Na makasama ka muli
Sa buhay kong puno ng paghihirap
Na tanging ikaw lang ang
Pumapawi sa mga luha
At naglalagay ng ngiti
sa mga labi

‘Di mapigilang mag-isip
Na baka sa tagal
Mahulog ang loob mo sa iba
Nakakabalisa, knock on wood
‘Wag naman sana


Umuwi ka na baby…
Umuwi ka na baby…
Umuwi ka na baby…

Umuwi ka na baby…
Umuwi ka na baby…
Umuwi ka na baby…

bow!

new life

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20th anniversary of People Power

walang pasok!!!

Pinoy idol?

Philippine news?
Oust Gloria!

http://today.reuters.com/business/newsarticle.aspx?type=tnBusinessNews&storyID=nHKG203229
http://www.bloomberg.com/apps/news?pid=10000100&sid=avmY8I_pkuHU&refer=germany

http://www.cbc.ca/story/world/national/2006/02/23/philippinescoup060223.html

American idol,.

http://www.idolonfox.com/

http://www.mtv.com/news/articles/1524899/20060224/index.jhtml?headlines=true

o eto na yung tendencies ko?

love happens

i think i maybe androphobic,.

la langue

I just don't know what to do with myself
Don't know just what to do with myself
I'm so used to doing everything with you
Planning everything for two
And now that we're through

I just don't know what to do with my time
I'm so lonesome for you it's a crime
Going to a movie only makes me sad
Parties make me feel as bad
When I'm not with you
I just don't know what to do

Like a summer rose
It needs the sun and rain
I need your sweet love to ease
all the pain
I don't know just what to do with myself [x2]
Baby if your new love ever turns you down
Come on back I will be around
Just waiting for you
I'm still so crazy for you

I don't know just what to do with myself [x2]
Baby if your new love ever turns you down
Come on back I will be around
Just waiting for you
I'm still so crazy for you

No No No No
I don't know what else to do [x3]
I'm still so crazy for you
No No No No

onmyhomeinthatjeepthatiwasriding2womenarguingabouttheirstudents

leap of faith

Today, I had an enlightening experience, enlightening because there is no other word I can see fit to describe it. I attended a healing mass administered by Fr. Faller. The homily relieved me of my doubts and anxieties. He was from a family of doctors (they own a hospital in Lucban), and science made him question pray-overs.
I think him, opening up like and him imposing to everyone that it is not him but the holy spirit’s power makes me believe more.

Things that I’ve learned:
to always keep quiet in the company of older people and let them just tell you stories, listen of course, for they shall grant you wisdom
Not to host anything, besides I’m not a very good host anyway.
The rest are for myself

It was not a push, really it wasn't there was some force. No not that rough. It was a power, overwhelming really. alam mo yun hindi ko alam di ko maexplain., while I was sort of fainting,. What was going on my mind was oh my gosh, oh my gosh, oh my gosh, like i was asking myself what was happening and i still haad my eyes closed alll the while,. and according to my tita. Who witnessed the pray-over my body was tight, stiff as a board i suppose. Hmm, I went for a second time and I knew what was going to happen,.. But it was still the same thing,. buti nalang talaga hindi ako todo bagsak,. yung todo higa..hay naku,

I asked myself am I healed, I wanted to blink, wink my right eye so that I could test my left eye, but I was telling myself, not yet. I just asked myself do I feel healed.

my physical illnesses weren’t healed, I still have petit mal and my left eye is still lazy as a bone. but I guess it wasn't that, that was cured. After all I found something new

Valentine's Day

Nothing's happening in my life right now. Nothing that i could tell you about. Just the usual stuff, jero cajoling and teasing (at least i realized that he's a fun guy, that's all there is to him fun, but once you get possed off...), my mom asking her to join her in whatever she has to do for that day, or me hanging out and enjoying whatever free stuff life has to offer. Funny thing is i'm alright with it. Although there is a part missing i'm not searching for it.

Question: why can't there just be a lonely heart's day?

I think that Valentine's is another holiday sensationized and promoted by the media hype and businessmen greedy for profit.

for someone i don't know:

Anyone who ever loved could look at me
And know that I love you
Anyone who ever dreamed could look at me
And know I dream of you
Knowing I love you so

Anyone who had a heart
Would take me in his arms and love me, too
You couldn’t really have a heart and hurt me,
Like you hurt me and be so untrue
What am I to do

Every time you go away, I always say
This time it’s goodbye , dear
Loving you the way I do
I take you back, without you I’d die dear
Knowing I love you so

Anyone who had a heart
Would take me in his arms and love me, too
You couldn’t really have a heart and hurt me,
Like you hurt me and be so untrue
What am I to do

Knowing I love you so

Anyone who had a heart
Would take me in his arms and love me, too
You couldn’t really have a heart and hurt me,
Like you hurt me and be so untrue
Anyone who had a heart would love me too
Anyone who had a hear would take me in his arms and always love me too

Why won’t you

to the people who fill my everydays, thanks for everything.

Fluency Liners: the ten commandments of friendship

1. Respect yourself and be yourself

2. Do not kill time with your friends but make each hour an adventure in being together.
3. Honor your friends as the shadow of Him after Whose image they are fashioned.
4. Let your friends add the finer touches to the better self in you.
5. Believe in your friends so that the best and noblest in them will deserve you.
6. Discover the unique quality in each man which endears him especially to man.
7. Do not steal the golden thread of trust which may bind your friends to God.
8. Remember the true friend expects you to be truthful even though truth may cut and burn.
9. Remember that he who falls in love with himself has no rivals.
10. Choose now the friendship you wish to continue in eternity.

http://www.nationalledger.com/artman/publish/article_27263454.shtml

is cheating on your partner ok???

http://rosiedemario.blogspot.com/2006/02/brad-and-angie-to-make-paris-permanent.html

only in my dreams

As I was about to lament on the idea of being alone and left out, I got a call from a friend, Faye asking me where I was and to come to where she is.

The Garden of Eden found???http://www.christiantoday.com/news/life/garden.of.eden.discovered.in.papua.new.guinea/322.htm

have you seen the movie somewhere in time? http://www.somewhereintime.tv/ (stars Christopher Reeves and Jayne Seymour) Richard was mesmerized by Elise's picture. This leads Richard to find out more about the actress and to her. Thus he uses self hypnosis to travel through time.
Richard was fascinated by the picture in the wall. It is because it's really for him. The smile was really meant for him. She was really looking at him while the picture was taken. I feel for Jayne Seymour’s character, Elise mc Kenna? It’s because she has to grow old. Not unlike the guy who had to die and already join her in his death. The woman has to grow old, alone and lead a private life and intrigue Richard Collier years later.

I was just wondering you know is self hypnosis really possible? I’ve read in a Jaime Licauoco column once, that there would be times that you might be having trouble sleeping because somebody could be thinking of you. Can that person make you dream of him or could you just dream of him? Can you have some sort of telepathic powers and talk in dreams. But dreams only happen in your mind, they are only a figment of our imagination right?

Anna Scott: "For June who loved this garden from Joseph who always sat beside her." Some people do spend their whole lives together. - julia Roberts, Notting Hill

You're only just a dreamboat
Sailing in my head
You swim my secret oceans
Of coral blue and red
Your smell is incense burning
Your touch is silken yet
It reaches through my skin
And moving from within
It clutches at my breast

But it's only when I sleep
See you in my dreams
You got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
But I only hear you breathe

Somewhere in my sleep
Got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
But its only when I sleep

And when I wake from slumber
Your shadow's disappear
Your breath is just a sea mist
Surrounding my body
I'm workin' through the daytime
But when it's time to rest
I'm lying in my bed
Listening to my breath
Falling from the edge
But it's only when I sleep

See you in my dreams
You got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
But I only hear you breathe

Somewhere in my sleep
Got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
But its only when I sleep
It's only when I sleep

Sharon instrumental

Up to the sky
Where angels fly
I'll never die
Hawaiian High
In bed I lie
No need to cry
My sleeping cry
Hawaiian High

It's reaching through my skin
Movin' from within
Clutches at my breasts
But it's only when I sleep....

See you in my dreams
You got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
But I only hear you breathe

Somewhere in my sleep
Got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
But its only when I sleep

Up to the sky
Where angels fly
I'll never die
Hawaiian High
In bed I lie
No need to cry
My sleeping cry
Hawaiian High

BING!

chandler's new sitcom:
http://www.fortwayne.com/mld/journalgazette/living/13754538.htm
oscar nominees:
http://www.oscars.org/78academyawards/noms.html

i should be doing my paper for Devilles, but still i'm too lazy to think, have nothing to do., hmm,.
singing in the rain,. copy paste nalang lahat sana ang sagot,.

why does a part always has to be missing? you have to be incomplete to feel yourself and whole. why can't answers just fall down from the sky in a matter of seconds? why does questions have to exist? can i not just always scream "jetmatic" or "tubig" or "water", like everytime i take my bath, and in a few seconds water would be coming out of the shower head that i hold on my hand. everything's not instant.

A text may seem to have might have versions and analysis. According to Leitch, Vincent, reading depends on the text and that a premise of response. This was a theory of Wolfgang Iser, who conceive that reading is not simply passive or static but a process of discovery. Where a reader questions, negates and revises the expectations that the text establishes. A text functions in much the same way as a script does for a play. The script is set to guide a performance, but it is based on the different ways and times that the performers enact it. Just as a director or actor’s version is his or her interpretation of the play, readings of literary text are dependent then on the text but are realized through the process of interpretation.


In Rainier Maria Rilke’s ‘the Archaic Torso of Apollo’, the text intention is to push human consciousness to some of its limits. Rilke’s reading audience was many leading European artists, and was almost unknown to the general reading public. With poets and artists, who admired his works in mind, the text intent is to bring change. Poets and artists are significant and prominent in the societies who influence other people to amendment. The text brings about awareness and realization in the reader’s conscience. The text now is powerful, influential yet balance. Thus, the work expresses spiritual yearning.


Structuralism is an approach to analyzing the narrative material by examining the underlying invariant structure. As stated by Eagleton, structuralism is concerned with structures and

bgrrr....