All by Myself

i cant believe that i did it! i edited this blog, without anybody helping me, well okay the intenret did support me in some way,. but i did it,. although i still don't like the colors and the font and the way the marquee goes. hmm, but i still did it.and i'm happy,. pag kaya nya kaya ko din! yey!

i was late for my logic class, it was already 9 am(logic scheduled at 8:30-10am). as it turned out, luck was in my side, we had no class that day, senyora, the assistant dean was performing an evaluation of two teachers. so i waited for the class to finish, for i did not also attend the last meeting,(:.

and now i am in the library.

i cannot remember anything anymore from mam Lintag's computer class of html,. so i took some tips from the blogger template. and decided to web-search for html beginners.
somehow i guess, i got lucky because with a few tries and a copy-pastes,. i got this,.

PEOPLE please comment,.
am i really all by myself???

When I was youngI never needed anyone

And making love was just for fun

Those days are gone

Livin' alone

I think of all the friends

I've known

When I dial the telephone

Nobody's home

All by myself Don't wanna be

All by myselfAnymore

Hard to be sure Sometimes I feel so insecure

And loves so distant and obscure

Remains the cure All by myself

Don't wanna be All by myself Anymore All by myself Don't wanna live

All by myself Anymore

When I was young I never needed anyone

Making love was just for fun Those days are gone

All by myself Don't wanna be All by myself Anymore All by myself

Don't wanna live Oh Don't wanna live

By myself, by myself Anymore

By myselfAnymore Oh All by myself

Don't wanna liveI never, never, never

Needed anyone

hmm,.

more friends news? ano ba talaga kuya?
http://www.postchronicle.com/news/entertainment/tittletattle/article_2124857.shtml

good bye for the mean time TYPE B boyfriend,.
http://english.kbs.co.kr/entertainment/news/1341641_11858.html
what i like about him is that he knows how to be cute, he's not handsome but he's charming
so watch my boyfriend is type b and other koreanovelas which stars lee dong-geon

My Dilemma is not stupid, ..

Problems? Stare out into outer space and see that we are not alone.

http://dsc.discovery.com/news/briefs/20060123/smallestplanet_spa.html
http://www.timesonline.co.uk/article/0,,3-2009914,00.html

Probably giving us more races (or other forms of life) to discriminate and land to migrate to.
Hope that these will answer great questions such as where did life come from?



It’s actually because I’m a (day) dreamer. I dwell on the future, on what is to happen. And with this situation, it somehow brings closure. Closure to what is, what if and what is to become.

Someday my Prince will come

I have always liked the fairy tale Cinderella, I like reading its many versions, Ashputtel, et al and watching the movies also. One that I like best is the UK TV production, stars Marcella Plunkett and Kathleen Turner as the stepmother. It’s a modern take, because the prince also plays in a rock band and the step sisters are so into earrings, shoes, et cetera, the sisters of vanity. The glass slippers are not glass slippers but instead shoes made out of petals; because the fairy godmother is a sea nymph or sea goddess. (I’ve watched it on Star Movies.)
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0218891/
There’s also ‘slipper and the rose’, which is an old movie and doesn’t just end with the prince finding Cinderella. You have to watch it for yourself.
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0075232/
Drew Barrymore’s ‘ever after’ is one of my favorite movies, as it shows the female hero being strong and resolute.
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0120631/
Cinderella is probably the most prominent fairy tale. Some girls can relate to Cinderella, the rags to riches story. I really don’t know.
So I guess I’d have to be ‘Sleeping Beauty’ then, only waiting for my prince to wake me up. Not snow white (or snow drop?), because I don’t have my seven dwarfs.

Maybe I am meant to be alone, you know sometimes I wonder. (Because I really don’t have a bff or something.)

Somehow I think I am mastering the art of solitude (but I am not a loner, ok?). People talk to themselves, there’s nothing unusual about that. I simply catch myself doing it often, maybe it’s because, it’s really with yourself that you can relate to.

Earth shattering: Macky has a boyfriend, boohoohoo and bwahaha…hehe.

My mom is watching...

My mind is a total blank, although there are a lot of things that I want to write about. Maybe, I haven’t figured out what to say. I guess my mind is all messed up.
I’m too lazy to write about anything, that’s probably why I’m copy-paste-ing things.
That’s why somehow I’m making this like an update about some other girl’s life.

Sana sila na lang (or if you could read between the lines, i dont like vince):
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/pages/live/articles/showbiz/showbiznews.html?in_article_id=374958&in_page_id=1773
http://www.spotlightingnews.com/article.php?news=1937
http://www.channel4.com/news/content/news-storypage.jsp?id=597749

Don’t you just wish that life could come with a user’s manual? Some lives aren’t that easy to live, you know, user friendly? Regrettably, we have to make our own mistakes and learn from them. I mean, can’t we just all live in the Garden of Eden. (Because the persuasive snake tempted Eve to take a bite off that fruit, that’s why, duh?)

Anyway, I’m almost a decade old and its only now that I have learned to live my life, quite faulty and flawed I might add. Possibly this is why I like watching friends, they make mistakes which people laugh at, also playing sims, which I learn a lot about life from.

si mama nag-aantay sa likod ko, i need to teach her how to check and send her email

Random question: if you could be invisible for a day what would you do?

dangnabit!!! demontres!!!

punieta,.
all that joy for nothing.. boo hoo,.

from http://news.webindia123.com/news/showdetails.asp?id=228949&cat=Entertainment

NBC says forget 'Friends' reunion rumorsNew York January 24, 2006 12:01:13 AM IST
NBC Universal chief Jeff Zucker Monday said there is not one ounce of truth to widespread reports of a multimillion-dollar Friends reunion.
Published reports cropped up during the weekend reporting the six Friends stars had signed big money deals with NBC to revisit the sitcom for four one-hour episodes.
However, Zucker told Access Hollywood the reports had not one ounce of truth.
He also quashed a rumored Friends spinoff starring David Schwimmer, Matthew Perry and Matt LeBlanc.
Friends ended its 10-year run in May 2004 and remains popular in syndication.(UPI)

from: http://breakingnews.iol.ie/entertainment/story.asp?j=170279434&p=y7xz8xy4x

No reunion for Friends - Warner
23/01/2006 - 20:55:41 Reports that the seminal comedy Friends is to be revived were denied tonight by the show’s producers.According to stories on the internet, the six stars of the hit sitcom have agreed multi-million dollar deals to reprise their roles for four one-hour specials.But a spokeswoman for Warner Bros insisted there were no plans for any new episodes or spin-offs.“There is absolutely no truth in it – it’s all rumour,” she said.“There is nothing planned of any kind.”The reports claimed the double episodes were due to air next year, with Jennifer Aniston, Courteney Cox, Lisa Kudrow, Matt LeBlanc, David Schwimmer and Matthew Perry all having done the deal in a secret meeting before Christmas.Aniston was said to have been the last to agree.It was also reported that the three male stars were to make a new spin-off called It’s A Guy Thing.
© Thomas Crosbie Media, 2006.

http://news.scotsman.com/latest.cfm?id=115772006
Friends reunion: 'It's all rumour'

Reports that the seminal comedy Friends is to be revived have been denied by the show's producers.
According to stories on the internet, the six stars of the hit sitcom have agreed multi-million dollar deals to reprise their roles for four one-hour specials.
But a spokeswoman for Warner Bros insisted there were no plans for any new episodes or spin-offs.
"There is absolutely no truth in it - it's all rumour," she said.
"There is nothing planned of any kind."
The reports claimed the double episodes were due to air next year, with Jennifer Aniston, Courteney Cox, Lisa Kudrow, Matt LeBlanc, David Schwimmer and Matthew Perry all having done the deal in a secret meeting before Christmas.
Aniston was said to have been the last to agree.
It was also reported that the three male stars were to make a new spin-off called It's A Guy Thing.
© Copyright Press Association Ltd 2006, All Rights Reserved.

ok,., so i better start saving up my money to buy myself those dvds,.


kaasar talaga!!!!!
wretched world!!!

this just in...

probably one of the most ecsatatic right now,. just two hous ago:

from : http://www.entertainmentwise.com/news?id=12641

The six cast members of the hit TV show ‘Friends’ are to reunite for four one hour specials.Jennifer Aniston, Courtney Cox, Lisa Kudrow, Matt LeBlanc, David Schwimmer and Matthew Perry will all be appearing in the shows for £2.5million a piece…not bad.The deal was agreed with NBC in a secret meeting before Christmas, a spokesperson for MBC said of the deal: "Bringing them back is a dream come true. Ratings will go through the roof."The sitcom finished for good only a couple of years ago, but producers have managed to pin down all the original cast members to reprise their roles, even Jennifer Aniston who has had the most successful film career since finishing ‘Friends’.An NBC insider revealed: "She's (Aniston) the one who had been holding out. But she's now agreed to reprise Rachel (Green).”It is believed that scriptwriters are currently working on new material for the specials that will be screened later this year.Also, according to IOL.com, NBC are hoping that a second spin –off of ‘Friends’, ‘It’s a Guy Thing’, featuring Matt LeBlanc, Mathew Perry and David Schwimmer will prove to be more successful then the god-awful ‘Joey’...well it couldn’t be much worse.

from: http://www.thehollywoodnews.com/article/23010606.php
NBC has apparently struck a deal with the six stars of FRIENDS to lure them back to the small screen for four hour long specials. Jennifer Aniston, Courteney Cox, Lisa Kudrow, Matt LeBlanc, David Schwimmer and Matthew Perry will all return for a whopping $5 million each!

There may also be a spin-off show, according to website Digital Spy. They claim that Perry, Schwimmer and Le Blanc will return as Chandler, Ross and Joey respecively for a series named 'A GUY THING'.
There has been no official word from the network, and it's not known as to when the series will be aired, but various sources say that it's all a done deal.

from : http://www.postchronicle.com/news/entertainment/tittletattle/article_2124163.shtml
Everyones 'favorite' Friends are returning to television after each of its six stars agreed to multi-million dollar deals to star in four one-hour specials. In a secret meeting before this past Christmas, Jennifer Aniston, Courteney Cox, Lisa Kudrow, Matt LeBlanc, David Schwimmer and Matthew Perry reportedly agreed to a 2.7 million apiece deal with NBC big-wigs in Los Angeles, according to a published report.
Scriptwriters have reportedly already started to pen lines for the 'fab' four double episodes, which are due to air this season.
Aniston, who has filmed a slew of movies since the final Friends episode, was the last to agree to the new deal.
An NBC insider says, "She's the one who had been holding out. But she's now agreed to reprise Rachel.
"Bringing them back is a dream come true. Ratings will go through the roof," execs said.
Network bosses have also hinted at a second spin-off of the hit comedy, following the disappointing performance of Matt LeBlanc's show Joey. The new program will see the three male stars - Perry, Schwimmer and LeBlanc - pilot a series called It'S A Guy Thing.
An NBC spokesperson has confirmed, "Negotiations on future projects are going on all the time."
-- Compiled from wire reports


I pity Jennifer Aniston, on the contrary that she’s showing a great deal of courage on the much talked about split from Brad Pitt and also the child (children, rumored to be twins) that Brad has conceived with Angelina Jolie.
From tabloid reports,

Life & Style Magazine will report in its upcoming issue:
“If I’d given Brad the child he wanted, he’d still be with me,” an insider says Jen sobbed to her friends. “I don’t know how long it’s going to take me to get over this.”
In her time of crisis, Jen has been crying on the shoulder of best friend Courteney Cox, an insider says. Jen told Courteney “It’s almost as if Brad sat down and planned all the things that would hurt me from the day he met Angelina and then put the plan into effect,” she said.

and oh yeah,, she's moving in with Vince Vaughn in her Malibu home...

Anyway watch .. ‘Rumor has it’, ‘Derailed’, “Friends with money” and what’s the other with Vince Vaughn “heart???’?

ok,. so i'd rather be taking about things like,.,.,.,.,.,.,,. but i dont think before i say anything and
i dont say whatever it is that i really want to say,.
ciao!

Things that I only say to food (or why I have the tendency to binge eat)

There are people who are anorexic, bulimic, people with eating disorders. I hate to think that I am one of them. But sometimes I can only find comfort in food. There is a rule in my life to never tell people that I am on a diet, however it seems like I am always on one. How can you stop me from wanting to look good? People around me are beautiful. People I see always seem to be thin and pretty. But then food seems to be the only thing left in the world that’s given me consolation.

Everyday life has to be passed thru a series of travail and problems. And I guess one of the main points is to socialize. Socialize and get more problems, still. Sometimes I don’t know really what my role is in this world. But I don’t want to be stuck in mediocrity. Have you figured out what role you were supposed to play? Some people are stupid.

On my bedroom door is a post-it message to/from me that says are you now beautiful (maganda ka na ba)? Well this is a reminder to self that I whenever I step out of that door I should be pretty, made up, ready to face the day. Also a reminder that whenever I go through any door I should walk that door with confidence, well really back straight, with great posture, as if thinking I own the room.

As much as I want to say it all, I can’t after all you’re not food and I can’t name names.

Next: Why doesn’t life come with its own user’s manual?

Thought for the day: “if we start by changing our image of the world we’ll end up changing the world.” - Wim Wenders, German director

Random Thoughts

Although there’s one topic that I would like to talk about I’d rather pretend that I’m busy that’s why I can’t and some random thoughts in my head.

If god had a name would you call Him that?

Me? Most probably not, I’d be afraid to call Him whatever His name would be.

Better left unanswered:
1 Is there really soul mate? A perfect/ true friend?
2. If you can get way with murder, who would you kill right now?
3. are there times that you think you are pathetic? Beautiful? Or just wishing you were dead?

What is one thing that you cannot give up your belief in?

Oh yeah, I just watched Peter Jackson’s King Kong, it made me cry.

All that King Kong cared about was Anne Darrow, and Anne cared about King Kong too.
Anne and King Kong had become friends or rather formed a bond when Anne played with King Kong. She had made him laugh through her antics, juggling, dancing, etc.
King Kong’s concern for Anne is first evident when King Kong saved Anne from three t-rexes. He was not going to kill them but really to save Anne. He only eliminated the t-rex when the latter would not stop pursuing Anne.
King Kong’s death was a loss for Anne because at the beginning, her old friend said something about when Anne reaches out for something it disappears or something like that. Well, Anne did show affection towards King Kong. She knew that she can tame the beast or rather that the beast was tame.
Ayokonamagisipcecil,. Sanakungkahaponfeelnafeelkopa,.ayokonamagsip..sanawlangprelimssanasanasanasana

Is there somebody who'd sing with me?

“But I did, I can
I was, I am
Only human, living, dying
Just like any fool who ever breathed
If love is blind
If love's a drug
It always is
It always was and
Love was surely made for fools like me”
-from fools like me, Lisa Loeb

What is it with love and why does it seem to be a favorite subject? Why isn’t companionship enough? How come a good time with your best buds seem never enough?

There would be times when I would want a hug, people would not know it but that would mean that I yearn. But I do not know what for. It couldn’t be love since I am already happy at those moments with either family or friends. I had just a good time. I’m thinking what I want is intimacy in my life.
“Everybody's searching for intimacy Ooh ooh ooh ooh
Everybody's hurting for intimacy Ooh ooh ooh ooh
Hey yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah”
-Intimacy the Corrs
Well not really a boyfriend, I’m not yet ready for that; maybe a fling, a short-lived fling. I have these wild thoughts in my head about it.

Why couldn’t God just have made us humans asexual? We wouldn’t have to go through the trouble of dating, mating, and going through love.

Somebody for Someone the Corrs

There's a deep girl in the corner shop
Selling sugar for money in the dead of the night
And her soul's in the sugar and her heart's in the mud
And she's crying with a stranger
For someone to love
And she sings

"Look at me, see me' 'look at me, save me'
'Free me, find me 'cos if there's
Somebody for someone, yeah look at me"
Somebody for someone

There's a deep boy at the corner shop
Watching sugar sell for money to the dead at night
And he sees in her an angel in the cruelest of worlds
Hiding in the darkness
Screaming out for love (screaming out for love)
And he sings

(Somebody's gonna make it right) "look at me"
(Somebody's gonna make it right) "see me"
(Somebody's gonna make it right) "look for me"
(Somebody's gonna make it right) "save me"
(Somebody's gonna make it right) "free me"
(Somebody's gonna make it right) "find me"
"Cos if (Somebody's gonna make it right)there's somebody for
someone, come look at me"

[Violin solo]

(Somebody's gonna make it right)10x
(Somebody's gonna make it right) "look at me"
(Somebody's gonna make it right) "see me"
(Somebody's gonna make it right) "look for me"
(Somebody's gonna make it right) "save me"
(Somebody's gonna make it right) "free me"
(Somebody's gonna make it right) "find me"
"Cos if (Somebody's gonna make it right)there's somebody for
someone, come look at me"
(Somebody for someone...), Yeah I wanna be
(Somebody for someone...), I know there's gotta be
(Somebody for someone...), You've gotta be
(Somebody for someone...), Yeah yeah...
(Somebody for someone...)3x

What the world needs now is love

What the world needs now,
Is love, sweet love,
It's the only thing that there's just too little of.
What the world needs now,
Is love, sweet love,
No, not just for some but for everyone.

Lord, we don't need another mountain,
There are mountains and hillsides enough to climb,
There are oceans and rivers enough to cross,
Enough to last 'til the end of time.

What the world needs now,
Is love, sweet love,
It's the only thing that there's just too little of.
What the world needs now,
Is love, sweet love,
No, not just for some but for everyone.

Lord, we don't need another meadow,
There are cornfields and wheat fields enough to grow,
There are sunbeams and moonbeams enough to shine,
Oh listen Lord, if you want to know...oh...

What the world needs now,
Is love, sweet love,
It's the only thing that there's just too little of.
What the world needs now,
Is love, sweet love,
No, not just for some oh but just for every, every, everyone.

What the world needs now,
Is love, sweet love.
What the world needs now,
Is love, sweet love.
What the world needs now,
Is love, sweet love.

not-yours

FRIENDS:
The plot is a little vague, did Phoebe just find something or what; but then she really was conscientious with the ‘not-mine’.
I mean every step she was to take with her shoes, the step would go “not-mine, not-mine, not-mine”

Jen Montano – embezzlement

My connection to Jen Montano and her place of work is just a scrap of link; and that is simply because I am my mother’s typist and the Official Receipts/ Financial Statements go through me. Jen Montano was the finance officer for a certain restaurant in the country, where she’s not even a year old of an employee. One thing that she was handling was the payments for the suppliers. She was supposedly in-charge of the releasing of the checks.

I know that my mother’s financial uncertainties are great because many of those restaurants we delivered (and still delivering) has unsettled accounts.

Jen Montano stole a lot of many about 800,000 to more than a million pesos from her employer. (Part of that money was supposed to be paid to us.) She was purportedly cajoling the company accountant, (as to saying crush ko to, etc). She would have an expensive snack/ merienda, imported pa. She did even treat the staff.

Kaya kayo mag-ingat kayo, hindi pa din sya nakikita. This was just in just this week.

nineteen minutes

I was running my usual errand for ma to the bank, but today it was a different bank. I was supposed to encash the check given to her, and it was at Banco de Oro.

The teller at the middle moved quickly and she was able to assist me, asked me to take a seat and wait. She looked somehow familiar. I think she knows me too because she would glance at me. Was she an old busmate? She looked like her, but I kept it to myself because what if she is not. Maybe she was the one who lives in La Loma (and still does, I mean Mayon Branch is near) at Iba, was that the name of the street?

When I came to her again, she asked, “Sienan (referring to an old school) ka no?” I said yes; and she asked “96?” No, she was older than I am. Liezel (Gamboa) is friendly she even asked me to open an account.

I remember the SV Paredes service, our bus. People were hysterical shouting either Caloocan or La Loma. And because I live at Caloocan I would scream for Caloocan, not knowing that it was the Caloocan people yelling for La Loma because they wanted the latter to be brought home first.

When I was little we used to live in the old house, now only occupied by the help. Its actually like a family home for its where most of us grew up. We believed that it is haunted (when I was little I think I even saw a ghost, probably because it is dark. It’s a great place where we always place hide and seek especially during brownouts. And there was this big plant box in the driveway where Jero and I used to dig up worms and let them go through our own silly maze.

Come to think of it, I was a homebody growing up. I spent most of the time with the household help. The song 25 minutes (too late, yea), would play over the radio while I was waiting for the maid to finish. I think we were going to watch ‘Anna Luna’(tama ba spelling?) and Maria Clara. I also had a playmate, Denise, our neighbor and Lucy, who was living with us.

All I can recall of Denise is yellow bells, bougianvillas, the piano and her grandmother who still lives next door. With Lucy, we were making up stories, I was eating paper and I was making her send a letter. Lucy had to move with her mother, the greatest cook in the world to Tarlac because my grandparents were retiring there.

Just a bit and a part of my childhood….I’m 19 na!!!

A woman undone

There was this episode of friends where Monica and Phoebe were taking care of a guy in a coma. They were wondering what he was like; that he was smart and artistic, and that he was the type of guy who really listens to you and doesn’t imagine you naked. When the coma guy awoke, he didn’t know who Monica and Phoebe were. They were the ones taking care of him. So he said thank you. But they wanted more than that, more than thank you and I’ll call you. Monica said something like “we give and we give and then one day you wake up and I’ll call you”

I have this three-year crush on Tortillos (hi Trish!) Whenever I see him I feel like I’m floating on cloud nine, ecstasy, and sheer bliss. I don’t even get to talk to him. He doesn’t even know that I exist. But his face seems to automatically inject a huge smile unto my face and that moment would seem to last throughout the day, I would feel jovial, oh so happy. I really think that nothing is ever gonna happen. Even my dreams tell me so, I cant even get him in my dreams.
Dreams are supposed to be that happy place where reality isn’t true (like me flying). It is where imagination takes off to a faraway land ends in a happy ever after. But then I get so pathetic as to I can not even get Tortillos in my dream.

So what is the problem?
Men? Women? Or is it just me? I guess all of us do have a problem here…like my inability to converse with the opposite sex, (yes, and they call me a bitch, a flirt.. hmm?)
Or maybe sometimes we just expect too much?
Expect that the person we like will like us back? Expect that he’s perfect? It doesn’t always work that way, right? I guess it is also because we spent time fantasizing about the other person so much so that if it doesn’t turn out the way that we planned it to be we get devastated. Either he likes us back or he turns out to be perfect, exactly what you wanted. We just have to be contented with what is with us. Enjoy whatever it is that life has to offer, and let the rest be for eye candy.

In that episode of friends, Chandler commented ‘are there no conscious guys in the city left for you two?’ or something to that effect.