Monday, November 06, 2006

blind items

thoughts in my head screams: there is no justice in this world!

it would be unfair if i say that not everybody worked for their thesis. of course everybody worked for their thesis. just that some worked harder and gave it their best to have a high grade because after all this (the thesis) will say all about what you learned in your college years. some made time to make sure that they will and can pass their thesis on time. i don't know if i should be one of those few.

after all i wasn't able to pass my thesis. so i was with the few whose grade was a fat INC on the online report. but i did make time to make sure that i have something to write about.

i researched on those amazon women. got books from the humanities and social science that covered the greek culture and literature. i even got to know the library staff especially those at the xero counters because of the many times i went to them. (i got pissed with the xerox boy at the ecclesiastics section, as he told me if i wasn't a girl the librarian wouldn't let me xerox the book i wanted for it was closing time.) i wasn't one of those who dillydallied thinking there was time. I even went to the national library for references.

unfortunately, come submission day. the number of paged that i have with me did not meet the 60 pages, minimum requirement of our strict, hair pulling thesis professor. quite a few of my classmates did still pass with only 20+ pages of written work with them. i wasn't brave enough but with my friend pulling my arm to do so. i tried. but no it was too late. what i saw on my online grade for thesis was INC.

i thought it was alright because i had friends who also received the same grade. so we were grieving together. those with pages below 60 did pass the subject you know. but this isn't about them. this is about the stinking justice system here in manila and how it seems to be exemplified even in an ordinary university.

one of my classmates, who i thought would have the grade same as me, did pass the subject. so, i thought wrong.
according to her she passed her thesis late, heheheh

which according to my profesor he did not allow how can she?

when she didn't even have anything started on the day of the submission itself? she doesn't even go to the library? does she know even know where the CR is in the library? i heard her saying she was just going to ler her cousins borrow her books for her .... basta naasaar ako kay dihfsdhfsdg kasi akal kodgsdgdfgjjgjgjggerg] rg shouldn't i and all those who got INC got the chance to redeem ourselves by passing our thesis not next year and by having that INC erased because after all, she did get to have a passing grade (with or withouth thesis passed).


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Tuesday, June 06, 2006

summer's ending

with summer about to end, i feel a little bit down, since i haven't done any of my goals. aseason is coming and with that would mean adjustment of my time,. yet again.,

haven't learned anything that was on the list,,
ganchilyo,. figures of speech,. all that kaekekan,.
haven't finished lady chatterley's lover,. in fact i lost it!!! binabasa ko sa labas ,. tapos nakalimutan kong daladala ko./,. dumb dumb neknok,.
pati tong blog.,.hay naku,.

but i did achieve somthing this summer,. i did bond with my lola, it's her first summer without him. i did made her watch movies, after 25 years. kulit ko kasi eh,. tsaka gusto din panoorin na mga ksama naim,. pero ang sinasabi nya., kung anong gusto ni ana.,

pero ang tagal ha bago kami nakapanood ng Davinci code na yun,.

pag ksama ko si mommy,. peaceful ako eh,.
basta hindi katulad dito sa manila,.
akala ko nga nung unang gabi matatakot ako at mangangaylangan ako ng madaming unang katabi (at katbi si moomy on the other) pero ok lang pala,.
tsaka din siguro i felt closer to God,. no really,.
we prayed the rosary every night,. basta iba kasi pag sya yung kasama kong magdasal,.
iba talga,.

and that maybe in the last few days of this (last) summer break i can still do what's on my list,.

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

different place

dito ako sa tarlac,.

i was supposed to see somebody named tin this week. when i was checking up on her via text messaging,. she replied that she was in boracay,.having fun with the summer sun and the white sand,.

so instead of just bumming around the house doing the same old things i decided to join my grandmother and tita that i can do the same old things but in a different place.

pray for the souls of mr. & mrs. rey medina,. who were murderd and died in fire

Thursday, May 18, 2006

things to do this summer of 2006:

things to do this summer of 2006:

learn a new thing:
latin: meanings of i.e.,. etc
learn figures of speech
get fit
keep writing the blog
go to a new place
read a novel
short stories
reconnect with a lost friend

i can get into:

accounting (banking is my top choice)
civil service
charitable.not for profit
education. college
social service

Sunday, March 19, 2006

Hindi ako Takot.

ayoko pang matulog.
gusto ko ako lang mag-isa.
gusto ko madilim,
at nakatalukob sa kumot.
pero ayoko pa kasi baka may mumu.

kanino naman ako magsusumbong?
because today
i woke up crying. talaga, first time.

Makita kang Muli

kinakanta ito ni gelo, sabay kami,.,.
Bawat sandali ng aking buhay
Pagmamahal mo ang aking taglay
San man mapadpad ng hangin
Hindi magbabago aking pagtingin
Pangako natin sa Maykapal
Na tayo lamang sa habang buhay
Ipaglalaban ko ang ating pag-ibig
Maghintay ka lamang,
Ako’y darating
Pagka’t sa isang taong mahal mo ng buong puso
Lahat ay gagawin makita kang muli,
Makita kang muli
Puso’y nagdurusa nangungulila
Iniisip ka ‘pag nag-iisa
Inaalala mga sandali
Nang tayo ay magkapiling
Ikaw ang gabay sa aking tuwina
Ang aking ilaw sa gabing mapanglaw
Tanging ikaw
Ipaglalaban ko ang ating pag-ibig
Maghintay ka lamang, ako’y darating
Pagka’t sa isang taong mahal mo ng buong puso
Lahat ay gagawin
Makita kang muli, makita kang muli
Makita kang muli

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

i let the culprit...

pinipilit pinipilit buksan,
kaya't nagbubukas nagbubukas nagbubukas
ang pintuan.

kaylangan tahimik at malumanay
ngunit biglang may nag-ingay
at na malitmata.

(tapos na ba?)
ang mga sandaliang haplos sa pagkuha
ng pagkainosente.

Wake up. Wake up.
This is reality.
whatever passes
through this door
is reality.

Sunday, March 12, 2006

to anonymous

i am from ust,.
third year college din ako,.AB
my brother is in 1st year Industrial Eng
siguro may kilala akong civil eng, yung nakaPE ko,.

smile always


sinong marunong pumunta pwede ba `kong sumama sa

mas mahal mo naman talga sya eh,. i'm not being materialistic,.
it's obvious with your actions.

And i shall be forever the third wheel, always with couples who are much closer and i am felling left out

Thursday, March 09, 2006

my very DumDum ferlo Paper

Time and Science

“Countdown: 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1, zero. The numerical countdown is now regarded as the symbol of century 20, representing the era’s obsession with the future, ‘forecasting’ and the tangible passage of time. one of the common beliefs of the age was in the idea of ‘progress’ and human society was perceived in terms of evolution or development from primitive to sophisticated, simple to complex. The countdown was developed by rocket technicians in the United States of America in order to add presentational drama to the launch of local space vehicles (old Soviet Unions rocket launches did not countdown to lift-off but merely initiated the ignition at the appointed time. More significantly, the countdown was a sign of the measurement of the future, with the point of anticipation located by calibration in terms of seconds. It must have seemed to the 20ers that here was a symbol of the future.”

-from ‘The Poetics of Science Fiction’

Our view of the future may be miles away or just in front of us. With every second passing, we get our reply for what seems to be at reach or not. It is only with time that we may know.

Time seems to be a perception which cannot be distinct and apparent. As mentioned by Lloyd, Genevieve. 1993, the measurement of a time fleeting in the present, as it passes cannot be insulated from puzzles that beset the measurement from non-existent past and future. The only time called present is an instant. .

As stated by Heidegger, Martin. 1992, a clock may show the time. A clock is a tangible and corporeal system in which an identical temporal series is physically recurring, with the provision that this physical system is not subject to change through any outside influences. The clock measures time in so far the duration of an occurrence is compared with identical sequences on the clock and therefore can be numerically determined. The clock provides an insight about time. Time is something in which a now-point may be randomly fixed, with respect to two different time points, one is earlier and the other later. Time is thus an unfolding whose stages stand in a relation of either earlier or later to one another. Each earlier and later can be decided in terms of now which however is arbitrary. The essential phenomenon of time is the future. Time is temporal chronological. Time itself is meaningless, it is temporal. Time never becomes long because it has no length. The essential phenomenon of time is the future.

According to Kempton, Kenneth. 1947, setting is the result of acutely observation of, or natural impressionability to the sense stimuli, which identify localities and makes them exist in the readers’ mental senses as if he were there.

The ten collected short stories are all set on the future. The future is a place which does not exist except only in the text, to the reader and the author. It is of the authors’ imagination of things to come. The writer creates a situation for discovery. As mentioned by Kempton, Kenneth. 1947, a story tries to set up and maintain an illusion of life by recording a sequence of facts. Being loosely based in the past and present, the accounts give us an insight of what is to take place and occur in time.

Time travel begins here, thru these stories.

Luis Katigbak’s story Subterrania is set in the near future, and almost nothing in the society and civilization has changed except the introduction of high tech gadgets such as the hairnet and the HV units. With the materialization of these gadgets people now had no more time to socialize. They failed and did not anymore want to socialize.

This can be somehow seen in today’s youth who sometimes prefer text messaging, spending time with the internet and computer than with getting together. Most of them stay immovable in their preferred rooms where they spend all of their times typically facing either a computer or a cell phone. These people fail to communicate rather than with the use of the internet and SMS.

In the story ‘Espiritu Santos’ written by Pearlsha Abu Bakar, SMS activity and traffic by cellular phones which emits electro magnetic waves alter brain frequency which lead to the advent of humans seeing dead people. The emergence of ghosts, paved the way for these beings to have jobs and the salary that they get goes to their still living loved ones.

This tale also shows the Philippines being eluded by traditional interaction, since the usage of cell phones went critical.

Isagani Cruz’s ‘Once upon a Time Some Years From Now’ offers what might life be with sex just a click of a button away. The POM or portable orgasm machine acts as a go-between between two sexual partners.

Sex has lost its culmination and best moment. It is as if people no longer flirt with each other to get them to bed.

Presented in Jose Ma. Espino’s story, ‘In Swaddling Clothes’ is the survival of mankind at risk. The earth due to man’s own doings is hostile and sterile. Two men and two women are then put to live in a space vehicle. The human race’s survival is at their hand, with the need to procreate.

Introduced in the story ‘Hollow Girl’ by Dean Francis Alfar, is the existence of enhanced men. Hollow Girl is an enhanced human, with many questions. She profusely lives her life with all the knowledge given to her. In the outcome, she realizes that it is with living the life that she might find the answers.

‘Apollo Centennial’ written by Gregorio Brillantes celebrates the hundredth year of man’s landing on the moon. Filipinos still speak crooked English and most probably some dialects have been face out. The Tagalog and Ilocano tongue has been merged to Tagilocan. A number of Filipinos do not speak their indigenous dialect instead prefer to learn either English or Tagalog.

Karen Manalastas’ ‘Treasure Islands’ explores the possibility of what is to become of the Philippines after most of the Filipinos have gone abroad to earn money. The country has turned into a tourist spot with no one but those who prefers to stay working here; usually those Igorot natives who serve as tourist attraction as well.

This is not far from happening since the Philippines has already been exporting quite a number of manpower to different areas of the globe. Everyone of us living here in the Philippines has about a relative or two working abroad.

‘Last Bus Ride; by Pia Roxas suggests the passenger buses being overtaken and left behind by bullet trains such as the MRT and LRT. It is because of the constant increase in the price of gas. Buses are more human, they are more alive than the bullet trains. Since you are always being asked to 'where are you going?' by a conductor. In a bus you can always sit beside somebody in the rows of seats provided for, not unlike in a cramped train normally filled with standing passengers.

Jose Ma. Espino’s ‘Mind your Words’ gives a take on a robot being man’s servants.

The beginning of robots to function usefully for everyday work would emblazon man’s achievement in science and technology, as to robots’ near perfection. One mistake could put a critical remark to a robot, for it does not notice this. Unlike a human who becomes aware of his shortcomings and may easily repair whatever damage done.

‘Past Forward’ by Maria L.M. Felix is a satire which reprimands the Filipino’s fondness for fantasy and actors turned politicians. Unfortunately people have not learned from Edsa2 and they have still elected actors for government posts.

The collected stories provide us of what might happen in time. Considering that, the basis of these stories is the present. The narratives depict an embellish adoption of the current political, social situation of our times, particularly here in the Philippines

These stories, although of make-believe, may not be so improbable from happening. The stories shift and change today’s culture to move to the right direction and somehow see the error of their ways.

Being set in the future, they are all science fiction in genre.

Science Fiction is being claimed as an important genre for turn of century society. Science fiction is a genre which tackles the advancements of science. According to Stockwell, Peter. 2000, Science Fiction has been called a literary genre dealing with scientific discovery, superior or simply other than that known to exist. Science fiction is perhaps the manifestation of the scientific background of its writers, readers and critics that so many have felt the need to categorize it and pin it down with definitive statements.

As mentioned in, it creates a setting different from today, the present and the past. The author’s imagination can present the diversity of the imagined effects of real life science, the effect of imaginary technology on present day society, or the effect of imagined science on an imagined society. Science fiction offers about science, the society and the human condition.

Science Fiction, like according to Stockwell, Peter. 2000, has had an impact on the way our cities are planned, transport systems are run, politics operate and the way we view our world today. It is not discovery of truths but the search for satisfactory provisional explanations and understanding.

Like science fiction, these stories can give us an impression of what to relate with and what might be the effects of science and technology on the society and us humans. An idea of what is to happen in time.


Espino Jr., Jose Maria. 1973. Sixteen Stories.
Heidegger, Martin. 1992. The concept of time. Blackwell Publishers.
Kempton, Kenneth Payson. 1947. The Short Story. Harvard University Press
Lloyd, Genevieve. 1993. Being in Time. Routledge.
Lee-Chua, Queena. 2002. Cogito Ergo Sum. Ateneo de Manila University Press.
Roberts, Edgar. 1986. Fiction, an introduction to reading and writing. Prentice Hall.
Stockwell, Peter. 2000. The Poetics of Science Fiction. Pearson Education Limited, England

Sunday, March 05, 2006

bye daddy Ador,.

I'll never forget the moment we kissed the night of the hay ride
The way that we hugged to try to keep warm while takin' a sleigh ride

Magic moments, mem'ries we've been sharin'
Magic moments, when two hearts are carin'
Time can't erase the memory of
These magic moments filled with love

The telephone call that tied up the line for hours and hours
The saturday dance I got up the nerve to send you some flowers

(the way that we cheered whenever our team was scoring a touchdown)
The time that the floor fell out of my car when I put the clutch down
(the penny arcade, the games that we played, the fun and the prizes)
The halloween hop when everyone came in funny disguises

Magic moments filled with love

Daddy is now in a better place.

I will always remember him and mommy always wanting to spend time with us, their grand children. A few years back, there would always be the weekly trips to Manila, just to visit us. We would always be eager with whatever pasalubong or treats they bring (chocolates, chichirya, etc.). Every summer they would come and get us to be with them in Tarlac. While on our way, we would each time stop to get treats. I remember the music playing Perry Como’s songs (Magic Moments, Caterina, Delaware). While in Tarlac, we did not spend most of our times together. Us, grandkids would spend mainly all our time playing by the pool or watching TV. I think only Jero got to accompany him to a cockpit derby, where he would usually be. What he wanted was just to see us, and be with us even just for the summer.

Saturday, March 04, 2006

from ust, with love

Labis na naiinip
Nayayamot sa bawat saglit
Kapag naaalala ka
Wala naman akong

Umuwi ka na baby
Hindi na ako sanay ng wala ka
Mahirap ang mag-isa
At sa gabi’y hinahanap-hanap

Hanggang kailan ako maghihintay
Na makasama ka muli
Sa buhay kong puno ng paghihirap
Na tanging ikaw lang ang
Pumapawi sa mga luha
At naglalagay ng ngiti
sa mga labi

‘Di mapigilang mag-isip
Na baka sa tagal
Mahulog ang loob mo sa iba
Nakakabalisa, knock on wood
‘Wag naman sana

Umuwi ka na baby…
Umuwi ka na baby…
Umuwi ka na baby…

Umuwi ka na baby…
Umuwi ka na baby…
Umuwi ka na baby…

Sunday, February 26, 2006

new life

This is something that I want to remember when I am old and probably about to die of old age; that I wouldn’t live unless I will it so.
There are still a lot of things that I can do, with me ill and unwell.
Life doesn’t have to stop just because I’m bedridden.

Try this:::

My friend Cecil is now in Korea.
Cec, if your reading this; musta?

Email mo ako…. Reply kadun sakin,.,.,.,.

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

la langue

I just don't know what to do with myself
Don't know just what to do with myself
I'm so used to doing everything with you
Planning everything for two
And now that we're through

I just don't know what to do with my time
I'm so lonesome for you it's a crime
Going to a movie only makes me sad
Parties make me feel as bad
When I'm not with you
I just don't know what to do

Like a summer rose
It needs the sun and rain
I need your sweet love to ease
all the pain
I don't know just what to do with myself [x2]
Baby if your new love ever turns you down
Come on back I will be around
Just waiting for you
I'm still so crazy for you

I don't know just what to do with myself [x2]
Baby if your new love ever turns you down
Come on back I will be around
Just waiting for you
I'm still so crazy for you

No No No No
I don't know what else to do [x3]
I'm still so crazy for you
No No No No

leap of faith

Today, I had an enlightening experience, enlightening because there is no other word I can see fit to describe it. I attended a healing mass administered by Fr. Faller. The homily relieved me of my doubts and anxieties. He was from a family of doctors (they own a hospital in Lucban), and science made him question pray-overs.
I think him, opening up like and him imposing to everyone that it is not him but the holy spirit’s power makes me believe more.

Things that I’ve learned:
to always keep quiet in the company of older people and let them just tell you stories, listen of course, for they shall grant you wisdom
Not to host anything, besides I’m not a very good host anyway.
The rest are for myself

It was not a push, really it wasn't there was some force. No not that rough. It was a power, overwhelming really. alam mo yun hindi ko alam di ko maexplain., while I was sort of fainting,. What was going on my mind was oh my gosh, oh my gosh, oh my gosh, like i was asking myself what was happening and i still haad my eyes closed alll the while,. and according to my tita. Who witnessed the pray-over my body was tight, stiff as a board i suppose. Hmm, I went for a second time and I knew what was going to happen,.. But it was still the same thing,. buti nalang talaga hindi ako todo bagsak,. yung todo higa..hay naku,

I asked myself am I healed, I wanted to blink, wink my right eye so that I could test my left eye, but I was telling myself, not yet. I just asked myself do I feel healed.

my physical illnesses weren’t healed, I still have petit mal and my left eye is still lazy as a bone. but I guess it wasn't that, that was cured. After all I found something new

Monday, February 13, 2006

Valentine's Day

Nothing's happening in my life right now. Nothing that i could tell you about. Just the usual stuff, jero cajoling and teasing (at least i realized that he's a fun guy, that's all there is to him fun, but once you get possed off...), my mom asking her to join her in whatever she has to do for that day, or me hanging out and enjoying whatever free stuff life has to offer. Funny thing is i'm alright with it. Although there is a part missing i'm not searching for it.
Question: why can't there just be a lonely heart's day?
I think that Valentine's is another holiday sensationized and promoted by the media hype and businessmen greedy for profit.

for someone i don't know:
Anyone who ever loved could look at me
And know that I love you
Anyone who ever dreamed could look at me
And know I dream of you
Knowing I love you so

Anyone who had a heart
Would take me in his arms and love me, too
You couldn’t really have a heart and hurt me,
Like you hurt me and be so untrue
What am I to do

Every time you go away, I always say
This time it’s goodbye , dear
Loving you the way I do
I take you back, without you I’d die dear
Knowing I love you so

Anyone who had a heart
Would take me in his arms and love me, too
You couldn’t really have a heart and hurt me,
Like you hurt me and be so untrue
What am I to do

Knowing I love you so

Anyone who had a heart
Would take me in his arms and love me, too
You couldn’t really have a heart and hurt me,
Like you hurt me and be so untrue
Anyone who had a heart would love me too
Anyone who had a hear would take me in his arms and always love me too
Why won’t you
to the people who fill my everydays, thanks for everything.
Fluency Liners: the ten commandments of friendship
1. Respect yourself and be yourself
2. Do not kill time with your friends but make each hour an adventure in being together.
3. Honor your friends as the shadow of Him after Whose image they are fashioned.
4. Let your friends add the finer touches to the better self in you.
5. Believe in your friends so that the best and noblest in them will deserve you.
6. Discover the unique quality in each man which endears him especially to man.
7. Do not steal the golden thread of trust which may bind your friends to God.
8. Remember the true friend expects you to be truthful even though truth may cut and burn.
9. Remember that he who falls in love with himself has no rivals.
10. Choose now the friendship you wish to continue in eternity.
is cheating on your partner ok???

Thursday, February 09, 2006

only in my dreams

As I was about to lament on the idea of being alone and left out, I got a call from a friend, Faye asking me where I was and to come to where she is.

The Garden of Eden found???

have you seen the movie somewhere in time? (stars Christopher Reeves and Jayne Seymour) Richard was mesmerized by Elise's picture. This leads Richard to find out more about the actress and to her. Thus he uses self hypnosis to travel through time.
Richard was fascinated by the picture in the wall. It is because it's really for him. The smile was really meant for him. She was really looking at him while the picture was taken. I feel for Jayne Seymour’s character, Elise mc Kenna? It’s because she has to grow old. Not unlike the guy who had to die and already join her in his death. The woman has to grow old, alone and lead a private life and intrigue Richard Collier years later.

I was just wondering you know is self hypnosis really possible? I’ve read in a Jaime Licauoco column once, that there would be times that you might be having trouble sleeping because somebody could be thinking of you. Can that person make you dream of him or could you just dream of him? Can you have some sort of telepathic powers and talk in dreams. But dreams only happen in your mind, they are only a figment of our imagination right?

Anna Scott: "For June who loved this garden from Joseph who always sat beside her." Some people do spend their whole lives together. - julia Roberts, Notting Hill

You're only just a dreamboat
Sailing in my head
You swim my secret oceans
Of coral blue and red
Your smell is incense burning
Your touch is silken yet
It reaches through my skin
And moving from within
It clutches at my breast

But it's only when I sleep
See you in my dreams
You got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
But I only hear you breathe

Somewhere in my sleep
Got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
But its only when I sleep

And when I wake from slumber
Your shadow's disappear
Your breath is just a sea mist
Surrounding my body
I'm workin' through the daytime
But when it's time to rest
I'm lying in my bed
Listening to my breath
Falling from the edge
But it's only when I sleep

See you in my dreams
You got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
But I only hear you breathe

Somewhere in my sleep
Got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
But its only when I sleep
It's only when I sleep

Sharon instrumental

Up to the sky
Where angels fly
I'll never die
Hawaiian High
In bed I lie
No need to cry
My sleeping cry
Hawaiian High

It's reaching through my skin
Movin' from within
Clutches at my breasts
But it's only when I sleep....

See you in my dreams
You got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
But I only hear you breathe

Somewhere in my sleep
Got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
But its only when I sleep

Up to the sky
Where angels fly
I'll never die
Hawaiian High
In bed I lie
No need to cry
My sleeping cry
Hawaiian High

Thursday, February 02, 2006


chandler's new sitcom:
oscar nominees:

i should be doing my paper for Devilles, but still i'm too lazy to think, have nothing to do., hmm,.
singing in the rain,. copy paste nalang lahat sana ang sagot,.

why does a part always has to be missing? you have to be incomplete to feel yourself and whole. why can't answers just fall down from the sky in a matter of seconds? why does questions have to exist? can i not just always scream "jetmatic" or "tubig" or "water", like everytime i take my bath, and in a few seconds water would be coming out of the shower head that i hold on my hand. everything's not instant.

A text may seem to have might have versions and analysis. According to Leitch, Vincent, reading depends on the text and that a premise of response. This was a theory of Wolfgang Iser, who conceive that reading is not simply passive or static but a process of discovery. Where a reader questions, negates and revises the expectations that the text establishes. A text functions in much the same way as a script does for a play. The script is set to guide a performance, but it is based on the different ways and times that the performers enact it. Just as a director or actor’s version is his or her interpretation of the play, readings of literary text are dependent then on the text but are realized through the process of interpretation.

In Rainier Maria Rilke’s ‘the Archaic Torso of Apollo’, the text intention is to push human consciousness to some of its limits. Rilke’s reading audience was many leading European artists, and was almost unknown to the general reading public. With poets and artists, who admired his works in mind, the text intent is to bring change. Poets and artists are significant and prominent in the societies who influence other people to amendment. The text brings about awareness and realization in the reader’s conscience. The text now is powerful, influential yet balance. Thus, the work expresses spiritual yearning.

Structuralism is an approach to analyzing the narrative material by examining the underlying invariant structure. As stated by Eagleton, structuralism is concerned with structures and


Tuesday, January 31, 2006

All by Myself

i cant believe that i did it! i edited this blog, without anybody helping me, well okay the intenret did support me in some way,. but i did it,. although i still don't like the colors and the font and the way the marquee goes. hmm, but i still did it.and i'm happy,. pag kaya nya kaya ko din! yey!

i was late for my logic class, it was already 9 am(logic scheduled at 8:30-10am). as it turned out, luck was in my side, we had no class that day, senyora, the assistant dean was performing an evaluation of two teachers. so i waited for the class to finish, for i did not also attend the last meeting,(:.

and now i am in the library.

i cannot remember anything anymore from mam Lintag's computer class of html,. so i took some tips from the blogger template. and decided to web-search for html beginners.
somehow i guess, i got lucky because with a few tries and a copy-pastes,. i got this,.

PEOPLE please comment,.
am i really all by myself???

When I was youngI never needed anyone
And making love was just for fun
Those days are gone
Livin' alone
I think of all the friends
I've known
When I dial the telephone
Nobody's home
All by myself Don't wanna be
All by myselfAnymore
Hard to be sure Sometimes I feel so insecure
And loves so distant and obscure
Remains the cure All by myself
Don't wanna be All by myself Anymore All by myself Don't wanna live
All by myself Anymore
When I was young I never needed anyone
Making love was just for fun Those days are gone
All by myself Don't wanna be All by myself Anymore All by myself
Don't wanna live Oh Don't wanna live
By myself, by myself Anymore
By myselfAnymore Oh All by myself
Don't wanna liveI never, never, never
Needed anyone


more friends news? ano ba talaga kuya?

good bye for the mean time TYPE B boyfriend,.
what i like about him is that he knows how to be cute, he's not handsome but he's charming
so watch my boyfriend is type b and other koreanovelas which stars lee dong-geon

Friday, January 27, 2006

My Dilemma is not stupid, ..

Problems? Stare out into outer space and see that we are not alone.,,3-2009914,00.html

Probably giving us more races (or other forms of life) to discriminate and land to migrate to.
Hope that these will answer great questions such as where did life come from?

It’s actually because I’m a (day) dreamer. I dwell on the future, on what is to happen. And with this situation, it somehow brings closure. Closure to what is, what if and what is to become.

Thursday, January 26, 2006

Someday my Prince will come

I have always liked the fairy tale Cinderella, I like reading its many versions, Ashputtel, et al and watching the movies also. One that I like best is the UK TV production, stars Marcella Plunkett and Kathleen Turner as the stepmother. It’s a modern take, because the prince also plays in a rock band and the step sisters are so into earrings, shoes, et cetera, the sisters of vanity. The glass slippers are not glass slippers but instead shoes made out of petals; because the fairy godmother is a sea nymph or sea goddess. (I’ve watched it on Star Movies.)
There’s also ‘slipper and the rose’, which is an old movie and doesn’t just end with the prince finding Cinderella. You have to watch it for yourself.
Drew Barrymore’s ‘ever after’ is one of my favorite movies, as it shows the female hero being strong and resolute.
Cinderella is probably the most prominent fairy tale. Some girls can relate to Cinderella, the rags to riches story. I really don’t know.
So I guess I’d have to be ‘Sleeping Beauty’ then, only waiting for my prince to wake me up. Not snow white (or snow drop?), because I don’t have my seven dwarfs.

Maybe I am meant to be alone, you know sometimes I wonder. (Because I really don’t have a bff or something.)

Somehow I think I am mastering the art of solitude (but I am not a loner, ok?). People talk to themselves, there’s nothing unusual about that. I simply catch myself doing it often, maybe it’s because, it’s really with yourself that you can relate to.

Earth shattering: Macky has a boyfriend, boohoohoo and bwahaha…hehe.

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

My mom is watching...

My mind is a total blank, although there are a lot of things that I want to write about. Maybe, I haven’t figured out what to say. I guess my mind is all messed up.
I’m too lazy to write about anything, that’s probably why I’m copy-paste-ing things.
That’s why somehow I’m making this like an update about some other girl’s life.

Sana sila na lang (or if you could read between the lines, i dont like vince):

Don’t you just wish that life could come with a user’s manual? Some lives aren’t that easy to live, you know, user friendly? Regrettably, we have to make our own mistakes and learn from them. I mean, can’t we just all live in the Garden of Eden. (Because the persuasive snake tempted Eve to take a bite off that fruit, that’s why, duh?)

Anyway, I’m almost a decade old and its only now that I have learned to live my life, quite faulty and flawed I might add. Possibly this is why I like watching friends, they make mistakes which people laugh at, also playing sims, which I learn a lot about life from.

si mama nag-aantay sa likod ko, i need to teach her how to check and send her email

Random question: if you could be invisible for a day what would you do?

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

dangnabit!!! demontres!!!

all that joy for nothing.. boo hoo,.


NBC says forget 'Friends' reunion rumorsNew York January 24, 2006 12:01:13 AM IST
NBC Universal chief Jeff Zucker Monday said there is not one ounce of truth to widespread reports of a multimillion-dollar Friends reunion.
Published reports cropped up during the weekend reporting the six Friends stars had signed big money deals with NBC to revisit the sitcom for four one-hour episodes.
However, Zucker told Access Hollywood the reports had not one ounce of truth.
He also quashed a rumored Friends spinoff starring David Schwimmer, Matthew Perry and Matt LeBlanc.
Friends ended its 10-year run in May 2004 and remains popular in syndication.(UPI)


No reunion for Friends - Warner
23/01/2006 - 20:55:41 Reports that the seminal comedy Friends is to be revived were denied tonight by the show’s producers.According to stories on the internet, the six stars of the hit sitcom have agreed multi-million dollar deals to reprise their roles for four one-hour specials.But a spokeswoman for Warner Bros insisted there were no plans for any new episodes or spin-offs.“There is absolutely no truth in it – it’s all rumour,” she said.“There is nothing planned of any kind.”The reports claimed the double episodes were due to air next year, with Jennifer Aniston, Courteney Cox, Lisa Kudrow, Matt LeBlanc, David Schwimmer and Matthew Perry all having done the deal in a secret meeting before Christmas.Aniston was said to have been the last to agree.It was also reported that the three male stars were to make a new spin-off called It’s A Guy Thing.
© Thomas Crosbie Media, 2006.
Friends reunion: 'It's all rumour'

Reports that the seminal comedy Friends is to be revived have been denied by the show's producers.
According to stories on the internet, the six stars of the hit sitcom have agreed multi-million dollar deals to reprise their roles for four one-hour specials.
But a spokeswoman for Warner Bros insisted there were no plans for any new episodes or spin-offs.
"There is absolutely no truth in it - it's all rumour," she said.
"There is nothing planned of any kind."
The reports claimed the double episodes were due to air next year, with Jennifer Aniston, Courteney Cox, Lisa Kudrow, Matt LeBlanc, David Schwimmer and Matthew Perry all having done the deal in a secret meeting before Christmas.
Aniston was said to have been the last to agree.
It was also reported that the three male stars were to make a new spin-off called It's A Guy Thing.
© Copyright Press Association Ltd 2006, All Rights Reserved

ok,., so i better start saving up my money to buy myself those dvds,.

kaasar talaga!!!!!
wretched world!!!

Monday, January 23, 2006

this just in...

probably one of the most ecsatatic right now,. just two hous ago:

from :

The six cast members of the hit TV show ‘Friends’ are to reunite for four one hour specials.Jennifer Aniston, Courtney Cox, Lisa Kudrow, Matt LeBlanc, David Schwimmer and Matthew Perry will all be appearing in the shows for £2.5million a piece…not bad.The deal was agreed with NBC in a secret meeting before Christmas, a spokesperson for MBC said of the deal: "Bringing them back is a dream come true. Ratings will go through the roof."The sitcom finished for good only a couple of years ago, but producers have managed to pin down all the original cast members to reprise their roles, even Jennifer Aniston who has had the most successful film career since finishing ‘Friends’.An NBC insider revealed: "She's (Aniston) the one who had been holding out. But she's now agreed to reprise Rachel (Green).”It is believed that scriptwriters are currently working on new material for the specials that will be screened later this year.Also, according to, NBC are hoping that a second spin –off of ‘Friends’, ‘It’s a Guy Thing’, featuring Matt LeBlanc, Mathew Perry and David Schwimmer will prove to be more successful then the god-awful ‘Joey’...well it couldn’t be much worse.

NBC has apparently struck a deal with the six stars of FRIENDS to lure them back to the small screen for four hour long specials. Jennifer Aniston, Courteney Cox, Lisa Kudrow, Matt LeBlanc, David Schwimmer and Matthew Perry will all return for a whopping $5 million each!

There may also be a spin-off show, according to website Digital Spy. They claim that Perry, Schwimmer and Le Blanc will return as Chandler, Ross and Joey respecively for a series named 'A GUY THING'.
There has been no official word from the network, and it's not known as to when the series will be aired, but various sources say that it's all a done deal.

from :
Everyones 'favorite' Friends are returning to television after each of its six stars agreed to multi-million dollar deals to star in four one-hour specials. In a secret meeting before this past Christmas, Jennifer Aniston, Courteney Cox, Lisa Kudrow, Matt LeBlanc, David Schwimmer and Matthew Perry reportedly agreed to a 2.7 million apiece deal with NBC big-wigs in Los Angeles, according to a published report.
Scriptwriters have reportedly already started to pen lines for the 'fab' four double episodes, which are due to air this season.
Aniston, who has filmed a slew of movies since the final Friends episode, was the last to agree to the new deal.
An NBC insider says, "She's the one who had been holding out. But she's now agreed to reprise Rachel.
"Bringing them back is a dream come true. Ratings will go through the roof," execs said.
Network bosses have also hinted at a second spin-off of the hit comedy, following the disappointing performance of Matt LeBlanc's show Joey. The new program will see the three male stars - Perry, Schwimmer and LeBlanc - pilot a series called It'S A Guy Thing.
An NBC spokesperson has confirmed, "Negotiations on future projects are going on all the time."
-- Compiled from wire reports

I pity Jennifer Aniston, on the contrary that she’s showing a great deal of courage on the much talked about split from Brad Pitt and also the child (children, rumored to be twins) that Brad has conceived with Angelina Jolie.
From tabloid reports,

Life & Style Magazine will report in its upcoming issue:
“If I’d given Brad the child he wanted, he’d still be with me,” an insider says Jen sobbed to her friends. “I don’t know how long it’s going to take me to get over this.”
In her time of crisis, Jen has been crying on the shoulder of best friend Courteney Cox, an insider says. Jen told Courteney “It’s almost as if Brad sat down and planned all the things that would hurt me from the day he met Angelina and then put the plan into effect,” she said.

and oh yeah,, she's moving in with Vince Vaughn in her Malibu home...

Anyway watch .. ‘Rumor has it’, ‘Derailed’, “Friends with money” and what’s the other with Vince Vaughn “heart???’?

ok,. so i'd rather be taking about things like,.,.,.,.,.,.,,. but i dont think before i say anything and
i dont say whatever it is that i really want to say,.

Friday, January 20, 2006

Things that I only say to food (or why I have the tendency to binge eat)

There are people who are anorexic, bulimic, people with eating disorders. I hate to think that I am one of them. But sometimes I can only find comfort in food. There is a rule in my life to never tell people that I am on a diet, however it seems like I am always on one. How can you stop me from wanting to look good? People around me are beautiful. People I see always seem to be thin and pretty. But then food seems to be the only thing left in the world that’s given me consolation.

Everyday life has to be passed thru a series of travail and problems. And I guess one of the main points is to socialize. Socialize and get more problems, still. Sometimes I don’t know really what my role is in this world. But I don’t want to be stuck in mediocrity. Have you figured out what role you were supposed to play? Some people are stupid.

On my bedroom door is a post-it message to/from me that says are you now beautiful (maganda ka na ba)? Well this is a reminder to self that I whenever I step out of that door I should be pretty, made up, ready to face the day. Also a reminder that whenever I go through any door I should walk that door with confidence, well really back straight, with great posture, as if thinking I own the room.

As much as I want to say it all, I can’t after all you’re not food and I can’t name names.

Next: Why doesn’t life come with its own user’s manual?

Thought for the day: “if we start by changing our image of the world we’ll end up changing the world.” - Wim Wenders, German director

Monday, January 16, 2006

Random Thoughts

Although there’s one topic that I would like to talk about I’d rather pretend that I’m busy that’s why I can’t and some random thoughts in my head.

If god had a name would you call Him that?

Me? Most probably not, I’d be afraid to call Him whatever His name would be.

Better left unanswered:
1 Is there really soul mate? A perfect/ true friend?
2. If you can get way with murder, who would you kill right now?
3. are there times that you think you are pathetic? Beautiful? Or just wishing you were dead?

What is one thing that you cannot give up your belief in?

Oh yeah, I just watched Peter Jackson’s King Kong, it made me cry.

All that King Kong cared about was Anne Darrow, and Anne cared about King Kong too.
Anne and King Kong had become friends or rather formed a bond when Anne played with King Kong. She had made him laugh through her antics, juggling, dancing, etc.
King Kong’s concern for Anne is first evident when King Kong saved Anne from three t-rexes. He was not going to kill them but really to save Anne. He only eliminated the t-rex when the latter would not stop pursuing Anne.
King Kong’s death was a loss for Anne because at the beginning, her old friend said something about when Anne reaches out for something it disappears or something like that. Well, Anne did show affection towards King Kong. She knew that she can tame the beast or rather that the beast was tame.
Ayokonamagisipcecil,. Sanakungkahaponfeelnafeelkopa,.ayokonamagsip..sanawlangprelimssanasanasanasana

Monday, January 09, 2006

Is there somebody who'd sing with me?

“But I did, I can
I was, I am
Only human, living, dying
Just like any fool who ever breathed
If love is blind
If love's a drug
It always is
It always was and
Love was surely made for fools like me”
-from fools like me, Lisa Loeb

What is it with love and why does it seem to be a favorite subject? Why isn’t companionship enough? How come a good time with your best buds seem never enough?

There would be times when I would want a hug, people would not know it but that would mean that I yearn. But I do not know what for. It couldn’t be love since I am already happy at those moments with either family or friends. I had just a good time. I’m thinking what I want is intimacy in my life.
“Everybody's searching for intimacy Ooh ooh ooh ooh
Everybody's hurting for intimacy Ooh ooh ooh ooh
Hey yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah”
-Intimacy the Corrs
Well not really a boyfriend, I’m not yet ready for that; maybe a fling, a short-lived fling. I have these wild thoughts in my head about it.

Why couldn’t God just have made us humans asexual? We wouldn’t have to go through the trouble of dating, mating, and going through love.

Somebody for Someone the Corrs

There's a deep girl in the corner shop
Selling sugar for money in the dead of the night
And her soul's in the sugar and her heart's in the mud
And she's crying with a stranger
For someone to love
And she sings

"Look at me, see me' 'look at me, save me'
'Free me, find me 'cos if there's
Somebody for someone, yeah look at me"
Somebody for someone

There's a deep boy at the corner shop
Watching sugar sell for money to the dead at night
And he sees in her an angel in the cruelest of worlds
Hiding in the darkness
Screaming out for love (screaming out for love)
And he sings

(Somebody's gonna make it right) "look at me"
(Somebody's gonna make it right) "see me"
(Somebody's gonna make it right) "look for me"
(Somebody's gonna make it right) "save me"
(Somebody's gonna make it right) "free me"
(Somebody's gonna make it right) "find me"
"Cos if (Somebody's gonna make it right)there's somebody for
someone, come look at me"

[Violin solo]

(Somebody's gonna make it right)10x
(Somebody's gonna make it right) "look at me"
(Somebody's gonna make it right) "see me"
(Somebody's gonna make it right) "look for me"
(Somebody's gonna make it right) "save me"
(Somebody's gonna make it right) "free me"
(Somebody's gonna make it right) "find me"
"Cos if (Somebody's gonna make it right)there's somebody for
someone, come look at me"
(Somebody for someone...), Yeah I wanna be
(Somebody for someone...), I know there's gotta be
(Somebody for someone...), You've gotta be
(Somebody for someone...), Yeah yeah...
(Somebody for someone...)3x

What the world needs now is love

What the world needs now,
Is love, sweet love,
It's the only thing that there's just too little of.
What the world needs now,
Is love, sweet love,
No, not just for some but for everyone.

Lord, we don't need another mountain,
There are mountains and hillsides enough to climb,
There are oceans and rivers enough to cross,
Enough to last 'til the end of time.

What the world needs now,
Is love, sweet love,
It's the only thing that there's just too little of.
What the world needs now,
Is love, sweet love,
No, not just for some but for everyone.

Lord, we don't need another meadow,
There are cornfields and wheat fields enough to grow,
There are sunbeams and moonbeams enough to shine,
Oh listen Lord, if you want to know...oh...

What the world needs now,
Is love, sweet love,
It's the only thing that there's just too little of.
What the world needs now,
Is love, sweet love,
No, not just for some oh but just for every, every, everyone.

What the world needs now,
Is love, sweet love.
What the world needs now,
Is love, sweet love.
What the world needs now,
Is love, sweet love.

Saturday, January 07, 2006


The plot is a little vague, did Phoebe just find something or what; but then she really was conscientious with the ‘not-mine’.
I mean every step she was to take with her shoes, the step would go “not-mine, not-mine, not-mine”

Jen Montano – embezzlement

My connection to Jen Montano and her place of work is just a scrap of link; and that is simply because I am my mother’s typist and the Official Receipts/ Financial Statements go through me. Jen Montano was the finance officer for a certain restaurant in the country, where she’s not even a year old of an employee. One thing that she was handling was the payments for the suppliers. She was supposedly in-charge of the releasing of the checks.

I know that my mother’s financial uncertainties are great because many of those restaurants we delivered (and still delivering) has unsettled accounts.

Jen Montano stole a lot of many about 800,000 to more than a million pesos from her employer. (Part of that money was supposed to be paid to us.) She was purportedly cajoling the company accountant, (as to saying crush ko to, etc). She would have an expensive snack/ merienda, imported pa. She did even treat the staff.

Kaya kayo mag-ingat kayo, hindi pa din sya nakikita. This was just in just this week.

nineteen minutes

I was running my usual errand for ma to the bank, but today it was a different bank. I was supposed to encash the check given to her, and it was at Banco de Oro.

The teller at the middle moved quickly and she was able to assist me, asked me to take a seat and wait. She looked somehow familiar. I think she knows me too because she would glance at me. Was she an old busmate? She looked like her, but I kept it to myself because what if she is not. Maybe she was the one who lives in La Loma (and still does, I mean Mayon Branch is near) at Iba, was that the name of the street?

When I came to her again, she asked, “Sienan (referring to an old school) ka no?” I said yes; and she asked “96?” No, she was older than I am. Liezel (Gamboa) is friendly she even asked me to open an account.

I remember the SV Paredes service, our bus. People were hysterical shouting either Caloocan or La Loma. And because I live at Caloocan I would scream for Caloocan, not knowing that it was the Caloocan people yelling for La Loma because they wanted the latter to be brought home first.

When I was little we used to live in the old house, now only occupied by the help. Its actually like a family home for its where most of us grew up. We believed that it is haunted (when I was little I think I even saw a ghost, probably because it is dark. It’s a great place where we always place hide and seek especially during brownouts. And there was this big plant box in the driveway where Jero and I used to dig up worms and let them go through our own silly maze.

Come to think of it, I was a homebody growing up. I spent most of the time with the household help. The song 25 minutes (too late, yea), would play over the radio while I was waiting for the maid to finish. I think we were going to watch ‘Anna Luna’(tama ba spelling?) and Maria Clara. I also had a playmate, Denise, our neighbor and Lucy, who was living with us.

All I can recall of Denise is yellow bells, bougianvillas, the piano and her grandmother who still lives next door. With Lucy, we were making up stories, I was eating paper and I was making her send a letter. Lucy had to move with her mother, the greatest cook in the world to Tarlac because my grandparents were retiring there.

Just a bit and a part of my childhood….I’m 19 na!!!

Friday, January 06, 2006

A woman undone

There was this episode of friends where Monica and Phoebe were taking care of a guy in a coma. They were wondering what he was like; that he was smart and artistic, and that he was the type of guy who really listens to you and doesn’t imagine you naked. When the coma guy awoke, he didn’t know who Monica and Phoebe were. They were the ones taking care of him. So he said thank you. But they wanted more than that, more than thank you and I’ll call you. Monica said something like “we give and we give and then one day you wake up and I’ll call you”

I have this three-year crush on Tortillos (hi Trish!) Whenever I see him I feel like I’m floating on cloud nine, ecstasy, and sheer bliss. I don’t even get to talk to him. He doesn’t even know that I exist. But his face seems to automatically inject a huge smile unto my face and that moment would seem to last throughout the day, I would feel jovial, oh so happy. I really think that nothing is ever gonna happen. Even my dreams tell me so, I cant even get him in my dreams.
Dreams are supposed to be that happy place where reality isn’t true (like me flying). It is where imagination takes off to a faraway land ends in a happy ever after. But then I get so pathetic as to I can not even get Tortillos in my dream.

So what is the problem?
Men? Women? Or is it just me? I guess all of us do have a problem here…like my inability to converse with the opposite sex, (yes, and they call me a bitch, a flirt.. hmm?)
Or maybe sometimes we just expect too much?
Expect that the person we like will like us back? Expect that he’s perfect? It doesn’t always work that way, right? I guess it is also because we spent time fantasizing about the other person so much so that if it doesn’t turn out the way that we planned it to be we get devastated. Either he likes us back or he turns out to be perfect, exactly what you wanted. We just have to be contented with what is with us. Enjoy whatever it is that life has to offer, and let the rest be for eye candy.

In that episode of friends, Chandler commented ‘are there no conscious guys in the city left for you two?’ or something to that effect.